Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
hurt myself again today
and the worst part is there's no one else to blame.

Blood on my hand again. And over my other leg. They're both a bit messy. The blood made me smile. I felt so alive for that one moment. And it felt so. Good. Kind of looking forward to tomorrow. Home alone. I can cut as deep as I want and I'll have plenty of time alone to clean it up.

Now the after effect is settling...

I'm losing friends, I barely have any left.... i need help

My girlfriend and I both have horrible, verbally abusive dads. We both have indifferent mothers, siblings who don't care, and we both cut. We both have each other...but sometimes I wonder if that's enough. We both have depression, her's is untreated, mine is treated though my meds don't work at all. I can tell I'm the reason she keeps on going through life. But how can I be, when she's the reason I keep going. When I have two ex's that still like me and despise her for being my girlfriend? How is...