to be honest i dont want to die i just want to see chelsey i think its finally hit me that i'll never see chelsey again. i went to her funeral it was a open casket she doesn't even look like herself i had to leave and come home i couldn't handle it. i just miss her so much. i should be dead not her. its my fault she was there when the drunk driver was there i told her to come home cause i needed her if she didnt leave then she wouldn't of been there to get hit. i miss her and i just don't know what...