Right. So I find my perfect family and it gets ripped away from me. Apparently I haven't suffered enough. I am such an idiot. I always tell myself that I won't mess it up this time, but what do I do? Screw everything up. I hate this. Whoever this "god" is that people talk about couldn't have made me anymore of a screw-up. I really want to curl up and die. I just want an escape from this hell.