I feel like I need somebody to say it's okay to get well. But it's also okay to be afraid of being well, because I don't know what that will be like. And I need someone to tell me that once I'm well, that it's okay for me to be afraid of becoming unwell. Afraid of losing everything. Because it wouldn't be the first time. How many times do you have to lose everything before your body finally calls it quits?

I need somebody to hold me. To say that it's okay that I'm anxious, and it's...

just another normal day.....I guess. mmmmm where should I start, well my complicated relationship is getting a little less complicated. He can actually talk to me..... but its through my friend. He usually tells his older sister everything but he didn't this time. My one friend says all he wants is my v-card but I've known him for all my life and know he isn't like that. He seems like a terrible guy but he isn't. I think he is just so confused and lost he doesn't know what to believe. He always...