Because you deserve to live
Because your life has value, whether or not you can see it
Because it was not your fault
Because you didn’t choose to be battered and used
Because life itself is precious,
Because you are connected to each and every other ritual abuse survivor, and so your daily battle automatically gives others hope and strength
Because you will feel better, eventually
Because each time you confront despair you get stronger you can’t know...

I feel like I need somebody to say it's okay to get well. But it's also okay to be afraid of being well, because I don't know what that will be like. And I need someone to tell me that once I'm well, that it's okay for me to be afraid of becoming unwell. Afraid of losing everything. Because it wouldn't be the first time. How many times do you have to lose everything before your body finally calls it quits?

I need somebody to hold me. To say that it's okay that I'm anxious, and it's...

just another normal day.....I guess. mmmmm where should I start, well my complicated relationship is getting a little less complicated. He can actually talk to me..... but its through my friend. He usually tells his older sister everything but he didn't this time. My one friend says all he wants is my v-card but I've known him for all my life and know he isn't like that. He seems like a terrible guy but he isn't. I think he is just so confused and lost he doesn't know what to believe. He always...