Need to sleep before school tomorrow.
I've decided I'm going clean for 2 weeks. I really want to do it and I'll be so pleased if I do. I dont know how I'm going to feel after school though. If my mum goes to see my nan then I may go straight into town before home so I don't have access to anything to cut with.
Ah well...

No matter how many love songs you listen to, it doesn't change the fact that you are alone. Absolutely alone.

My Best Friend/Brother just broke down and went to live with his brother but gave his phone to someone else and deleted his fb... he moved a while back.. idk if he is ok and its driving me crazy. the only person who has talked to him in the least 2 weeks wont talk to me and hates me and idk why.. i need to know he is ok but i have no way how... idk what to do with that.. today kinda sucked. my bf was being awesome to me today on the upside but all in all it kinda sucked.... i need my brother...

Back home now
Just before coming home today, I threw my razor into the sea. It was strange watching it go. Now that I'm home I could always just get another, but at least I wasn't paranoid all day about dropping my phone, so the case would come off, and a razor would skid along the floor with a list of reasons reminding me why I shouldn't SH.
Back to school now on Monday. Mixed feelings about that. On the one hand, I'm still getting used to the feeling of being around people that...