I've had like, three sleeps today already and I am not done with sleep yet. And every time I sleep, I fill the gaps between the things I want to be doing without getting bored. Because my attention span is very short and because I get tired really fast. Cognitive fatigue. It's one of my early warning signs but I am sticking to sleeping to fix it because ew meds.

I've actually had a pretty good couple of days. Terrified about the new year but oh well. Can't make time move faster.

I have felt so bad about myself lately. I have gained so much weight it is ridiculous. I am now definitely overweight and this just doesn't feel good or healthy for me but yet I eat anyway and don't exercise and don't do anything to stop it and then keep feeling bad about myself when I gain weight. I'm so fat and have so many stretchmarks it's so gross. I am so gross in general. My teeth are bad and I have acne and eczema and my hair is wild and never tame and I have no style. I am selfish and disappointed...