So I have been up since 2:34 am. I went to my grandmas for Thanksgiving dinner. I had fun. Checked my Instagram, approved people that requested to follow me*, and I ate. I asked my mom if I could spend the night. She said no. :/ It upset me...But I got over it with some messages from my best friend. I also posted some rather "rude" videos on instagram...I tagged Callum Klien in them...I got a few laughs out of them though. I also face timed with one of my exes...It was kinda awkward. I...

why do i do this to myself its nearly 6am again
i spend all day just wanting to go to bed and go back to sleep and then i spend all night feeling too anxious to lie down and even try to go to sleep
this sucks so much
i have a seminar tomorrow. its not till 2 but knowing me i'll still sleep right through it. i suck

So a few weeks ago I sent a letter to Andy Biersack's parents, the band, and him. I also sent him a t-shirt. I just got a letter from HIM and his mom. I am so happy!! I wasn't expecting them to get back to me but they did! His parents live literally 15 minutes away from me. This is the letter:
Dear Riley,
Thank you for your letter and also the t-shirt you sent! It was very generous of you. Your support truly means the world to us and we are so glad Andy's music has helped you.
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Don't you just love it when you're at a concert and one person in the crowd is talking shit about the band/singer you are there to see. Because I do. I was at a BVB show and the stupid ass thought it was cool to say shit about them. Andy heard him and called him out. He told him to come up on the stage and play the guitars if he was going to talk shit. The dude chickened out. But not before he told Andy to go fuck himself and threw the mic at Andy's head. After that Andy said he already has someone...

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I fucking love this story!! It's kinda funny...Here is an excerpt:
“You’re a good boy Jarvis! Such a good boy,” As I’m saying this, I nuzzle my nose with his and I hear a click. If they are fridging taking a picture of me with my cat having a moment, I will seriously rip off their balls and staple them to their foreheads. So, since I’m a weird fart face, I stand up and yell “ZEUS, I LOVE YOU! GIVE...

Omfg....I love The Ready Set...I've listened to their music before but I didn't know it was them.....Now I am in LOVE!!!

I have an appointment with the cfs service for january. Hopefully this will be helpful, but I don't know.

I had my birthday, and used birthday money to buy a ukulele. I know this is good. Now I can learn ukulele and be like Tyler Joseph.

I'm getting rid of my friend's rats. I'm going to take them to the rehoming service. I feel awful about this, but I have been telling him for weeks that I can't take care of them any longer and he's been ignoring me. He hasn't cleaned...

You say you love me but you turn your back on me.
You say you care about me but you never show it.
You say you'll be there till the end but you aren't here now.
You say I'll survive this but clearly I'm not.
You yell at me and tell me to smile but it's hard to smile when I feel terrible.
I just want you to love me for who I am and not the fake me.
I just want to not have you anymore and find someone else.
Luckily I think I found someone who cares about...

I am so pathetic. I cut last night...I hate it. I tell others to stay strong then I cant even keep promises. I promised people who saved my life I wouldn't cut. Now they are going to be upset when I see them again. Which will be next summer. I promised myself. I cant keep a simple promise. I need someone to save me from myself. Separate me from my own two hands, I've killed so many times, But I can't save the world from the creatures that don't die. I forgot, I cant be saved. I am already past the...