Oh my GOD. I can't handle being the one person that my parents do not trust. Literally I've been raped and abused and bullied and all I have done is try to make myself happy in every way possible and I get looked down upon. Who can I even turn to now? I should just end it I guess. I'm tired of not getting any personal space or getting in pathetic fights with every person. I just want to curl up and cry. Like one of my favorite songs say; "Maybe I should cut myself or curl up and die."...

Everything is PISSING ME OFF! I feel like I'm a fucking bother and that I should just disappear. I mean, whatever. I don't know how to feel today. I can't cut because I don't want to be sent to Rivercrest again, so all I have is me just crying my fucking eyes out for no reason.
I'm tired, I'm in pain, and for the first time in like ever I'm pissed that my boyfriend won't text me back right away. I know I shouldn't be mad because he is with family and has his own life, but damnit I just want...