I had a really bad relapse today. Made myself sick :/ I haven't eaten since sunday. Then i eat and i make myself sick. I feel so stupid. All i seem to do nowadays is cut, starve myself and just hurt myself. I hate this. I know i need to change but i'm so scared to. I mean this is who i have been for so long. I don't know who i am if i stop this. People are starting to realise things are bad. I don't want anyone to know. So what if i have anorexia? So what if i have constant thoughts of killing myself....

I'm really struggling right now . I feel reallly low and i don't even know why. I felt really happy all of last week for no reason and i want to go back to that feeling
I am so angry with myself right now, i cut for the first time in almost 2 weeks. I'm so weak. I can't do anything right
I don't want to eat anymore. I hate the feeling and i always feel disgusting, fat and unlovable afterwards. I can't sleep anymore i just lie there and think of how i can end it all and...

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