So i have got another doctors appointment tomorrow. I think i will open a bit more and honestly say how much i have been struggling. It won't be easy but i know it will help and after some persuasion from numerous people (you know who you are :] and thanks for helping me) I have decided that i should say something tomorrow.

I am terrified as i have never opened up before and am freaking out but i supposeits best. Just hope i don't back out last minute.