I'm so confused right now. I don't know what to think anymore. I just feel empty and numb. It's like i'm running constantly in circle, i'm going nowhere, yet every lap gets harder and more tiring than the last. The pressure to give up is greater. I get used to the pain aswell so with each lap of the circle I cut more and more deeper and deeper. But like any game or race there has to be an end. I fear mines coming soon. I can't take this anymore. I want it to end. I don't want to hurt anyone but...