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time to change? (Triggering)
Posted March 30th 2011 at 03:39 PM by Anatidaephobia
Updated March 30th 2011 at 03:44 PM by Palmolive (Adding Prefix)
Updated March 30th 2011 at 03:44 PM by Palmolive (Adding Prefix)
I had a really bad relapse today. Made myself sick :/ I haven't eaten since sunday. Then i eat and i make myself sick. I feel so stupid. All i seem to do nowadays is cut, starve myself and just hurt myself. I hate this. I know i need to change but i'm so scared to. I mean this is who i have been for so long. I don't know who i am if i stop this. People are starting to realise things are bad. I don't want anyone to know. So what if i have anorexia? So what if i have constant thoughts of killing myself. I cannot get the image of me slitting my wrist out my head. It makes me smile. It helps when i'm feeling down. I don't know why but it does. I want to cry infront of someone. I want someone to work things out so i don't feel so alone. Noone realises and i cant do this anymore. I want to overdose so badly right now 
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Stay strong chicka, you can do this <3Posted March 30th 2011 at 03:44 PM by Palmolive
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It is difficult to change when you are so use to being this way and it can be hard to see things being different. You can get better though and you will get better. Just take it one step at a time lovely <3Posted March 30th 2011 at 05:25 PM by *Jen*
