great just what i needed. My parents noticed i haven't eaten since monday, they watched and made sure i ate a salad and half of a granola bar before they left for pool. I don't know what triggered it i was sitting in my window smoking a cigarette and listening to Between The Trees wishing my dad wasn't grounding me from church [fucked up i know right] and i felt like crap from eating and i just forced it all out. i felt really lightheaded from it and i just layed on my bathroom floor crying.i've...

i just found out my brother of course the one person who i could tell anything to is in jail.Someone please give me something anything im going to cut again tonight i know it. It's sick when you have planned times to hurt yourself. I just don't know how im supposed to tell my nephew that his daddy's gone and won't be back for a long time. I just hope he's safe in that place. Hopefully he gets better and realizes the pills aren't worth it. Just someone give me a quote or advice or something please....

blah.im kind of excited because he's finally coming back from tampa for hockey. But i don't know i'm not okay, i know i need help. I just don't want to hurt my parents even more. Therapy doesn't work for me and i don't want them to have to pay for me to go to some resort thing. I just know it's wrong what i'm doing and i don't know why i still do it. My dad doesn't care about anything thats wrong with me he only cares about my grades. I tried to tell my mom i should go to the doctor and see if...

okay i haven't cried in forever
but i just relapsed
pretty damn bad
and i just don't know what to do
someone please help me
i hate this

this always happens
when im laying in bed
the urges come back
its hard to explain
i mean its like my wrists are screaming at me to do it to let it all out.
im contemplating whether or not im gonna do it
i know its wrong but it feels like the only way.

okay so if you've read my really long behind blog i posted first you know that i cut and my boyfriend would totally freak if he knew. I mean i really like him and everything but sometimes i just want a boy that can understand what im going through. My boyfriend would be totally close minded if he found out. i live in a small town called Goose Creek in charleston South Carolina and its mainly rednecks which i will confirm i am one but im actually not the same im vegetarian and i listen to rock and...

okay so my story isn't as bad as some people's and it's kind of long but i'm gonna try and sum it up as best i can.So it started in 7th grade when my friend started cutting and she told me and i asked her why. she said because it releases all the stuff she keeps in. She warned me that i shouldn't do it because i would most likely get addicted to it, i was fascinated because she spoke of self- harm like it was heroine.But knowing the dangers of it i had a lot going on my mom was drinking a lot and...