Given up on my goals. Like I said, I suck with them. I've kind of tidied my room, but there's still a lot left to do. And I did one mind map, but I didn't do the history or my story.

There's so much stuff to do and I just can't find the energy to do it.

My mother is convinced that I am purposefully being unhealthy so that I don't learn anything during revision so that I fail my exams so that I can say to her that I tried hard but I must just be stupid.

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I'm going to start a list of goals. Long term and short term. If I remember then I'll post the list as part of every blog entry.

I'll tick them off as I go, and add more, so I've always got something to work towards.

Right, here goes.

Short term goals

Tidy my room
Make mind maps for the whole of the Roaring Twenties
Make mind maps for the whole of Energy Calculations
Type up chapter one of The Moment of Truth
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My boyfriend did come over yesterday and I felt happy, amazingly. I won't even start thinking about the 'do I deserve to be happy, though' because if I do I'll feel down today as well.

He brought over a game for me to borrow, the original Just Cause PC game, so I've got something to distract myself with. And he brought me some chocolate.

We had sex and then did some chemistry revision and then watched some of a movie, Pirates of the Caribbean.

We had...