I'm going to get my work done tonight. And then I'm going to do the writing I promised some people I'd do. And then I'm going to make some mind maps. And then I'm going to read a book so that I can cut down the pile beside my bed. And I'm just going to keep going. On and on. It never stops. There's always something else to do and I just want to sleep.

I didn't get to go swimming and now I feel really pissed off. Even though I didn't want to. I just want to get out of the house. And now I'm on my own again and I feel like shit. I'm not doing anything constructive and I have a headache. I feel like shit.

I'm going swimming today. I don't really want to but I promised my boyfriend I would.

I have a headache.

I had a rough night. I didn't sleep well. Didn't help that I didn't want to turn out the light.

I just want to curl up and stop existing.