i have vodka and im going to get fucked because i feel really fucking shit and i want to overdose but at the same time i dont want to be abusive and if i kill myself they might think its because they left me and if i survive then im being abusive and if i dont i might make them feel guilty
i still might. we'll see how i feel later i guess. i just want to drink until oblivion.
i drinked until i things dont hurt anymore so that s good right i think thats good and now im singing to kyle...

I'm so hungry. My stomach hurts so bad. But I can't eat. My partner made me have lunch today and I managed half of what they gave me which wasn't much to start with, and only because they sat next to me and waited. And dinner, their mum made soup, and I managed a few mouthfuls. This has been going on for days. I thought I had been getting better. I was managing at least one proper meal a day. But now I can't.

I wish I could eat, it would stop my stomach hurting, it would mean I'd...