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Posted June 21st 2015 at 01:29 AM by Evanesco
I should be asleep. I find it hard enough to get up in the mornings without having a late night. But I'm still awake. And I feel like shit. I know it's because I ran out of meds so I haven't taken any in a couple of days. Which sucks. If I can last till Tuesday, I should get more then.
I wish Alex was here. I really need cuddles. I guess that's the problem with being poly. It's not my turn tonight.
I feel like self harming, but that's abuse right? Even though it's not because of alex, if they see cuts after they didn't stay the night, that's me being abusive. So I can't. Or I have to do it somewhere they won't see it, and not tell them even when they ask how I am. But then not telling them is bad as well. So I can't self harm. But I need to. I don't know how to cope.
I wish Alex was here. I really need cuddles. I guess that's the problem with being poly. It's not my turn tonight.
I feel like self harming, but that's abuse right? Even though it's not because of alex, if they see cuts after they didn't stay the night, that's me being abusive. So I can't. Or I have to do it somewhere they won't see it, and not tell them even when they ask how I am. But then not telling them is bad as well. So I can't self harm. But I need to. I don't know how to cope.
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Maybe you can tell Alex how you feel as an alternative to self harming? Talking to a friend may help. Hang in there
On another note, congrats on getting staff. Yay
Posted June 21st 2015 at 11:47 PM by Not_here
