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Idk. (Mentions of SH)

Posted April 4th 2015 at 06:23 PM by Face Up.

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I am a walking contradiction right now.

I have motivation to do so well but then no motivation to actually make the effort. I am so lazy.

I feel good but yet feel bad.

I feel like a failure currently because I feel like I am sinking lower and lower with things that should be so important to me.

I want to cut again. My sister's puppy has sharp little nails and is also teething meaning she likes chewing on people. She scratched me a few times and I can't help but think how easy it'd be to cut myself once or twice on the arms and say "Oops, Babz must've gotten me."

I want more weed.

I want the semester to be over already.

I want to just sleep and do nothing and feel nothing and be nothing.

But I'm too busy for that.

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1. 	I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Hopefully this will pass soon! Just keep your head up and try to find positives in everything! You can get through this!
   	Posted April 4th 2015 at 06:38 PM by Thereishope

2. 	You've gone so far SH free, keep fighting! Try reading a fantasy novel it. Helps me escape in a refreshing way
   	Posted April 4th 2015 at 09:52 PM by Not_here

3. 	Awww Dez! I'm sorry that you are going through this. Stay strong, I believe in you. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be here for you.
   	Posted April 4th 2015 at 10:27 PM by KimmyKitty

4. 	You Can do this. I'm here if you want to talk.
   	Posted April 5th 2015 at 04:34 PM by

5. 	You can do this, Dezie, stay strong! :hug: ♥
   	Posted April 8th 2015 at 11:37 PM by

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