Hey guys. I just needed to get this out of my system. Lately, for three or so years i have had this extreme pain in my left rib cage. It hurts and stabd when I touch it. It feels like it sqeeuzes that entire area sometims. I am really scared, because I think its a form of cancer. I am not sure, but I know I am at a high risk because of my artheritites. Yes, Im a kid, with RA. I have very scared, and realized if cancer woul destroy my life I would not want that to happen. So, I made an appuontment...

For a couple hours I was happy.
Now my depression is coming back.......................
I am so alone
I have ruined everything
It is all my fault
I am so so sorry

I cant live like this

I thought yuu were differnt. I thought yuu were there for me but yuu used me. Everyone else left. Yuu arent my friend Alyss. No no I am alone again.
i just want my blodd. Noone else.
Fuck i miss yuu bryan..mfml

I waann cut, as simple as that.
Tomorrow i will
Im tried of being strong
Im better weak nd covered in blood
F**KKK

I dont my mother anymore
Did I even know her at all?
i look at her facebook pictures and realize the face is a stranger
Not that I care anyway
I dont even know my little sister RaeRae or my little brother Boon..
What has this come to?
Their getting sucked into mothers lies
And i cant do anything
I promise I will go to court when I am 18 and you will be mine
But thats 4 yrs from now..
And Im terrified..Its already too late.....

Even though I really love you...Im going to smile because I deserve to.
AND you just might be right, goodbye is a second chance...
But, you said goodbye when I never left. You didnt say goodbye when I really left.
NOW, you want to talk to me, but I just gave up already.
Dont take it the wrong way-I love you so much. I want to marry you and have kids.
But I just cant do this anymore....
Maybe I need to think. Maybe I need to get away for awhile.
I...

Yuu said yuu would be there for me.
everyone said that, but they all left. I never wanted to open up to anyone.....I guess I was a fool, falling for the sweet words yuu whispered in my ears...
such beatuiful lies.
yuu sayed yuud be there but yuu lied too

And guess what? Im just in a "Fukk Yuu!!!" Mood
I have tol many emtions

So surperised I aint sad. Im just fukkinqq mad. I fell it for yuu. Not once, not twice,...

I feel like shit. Me and my ex are talking and I dont know if to cry, cut or slam my fkking head into a wal
Danqqa.....I want to tell him I love him so fuckong much. I want to beqq for him. Damn it everything is screaming yes Nd everything is screaming no FUCKKKKKKKK UGHHH

I missyou alot Bryan..please come back yuur my life. I want to die because Im without yuu plz talk to me I cant take this pain i see people who are always happy and it makes me sick my friends even got over their exs but im still in love with yuu and i dont want to be if yuur not in love with me i wanna die and die i want to make a sucode attempt again....but this time..yuu wont be able to save me...because yuu dnt care...i love yuu.i wish yui would read this....i wish soneomne would text yuu this...text...

Its not me its you. All the lies and things yuu put me thruu.
Lets get the story straight yuu were a poision flooding thruu my vaons
and now yuue gone and Im no longer chokcing.
ITS NOT ME IT YUU!!!!!!
Yuu left me all alone..my heart stops I already know..
Im sick and tired of mister maybe yuu never going to catch me cryyy
yuu made this mess yuurself
im sick and tired of picking up yuur dirty little pieces
pick them up yuurself jerkk
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