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Giving up
Posted September 4th 2011 at 03:51 AM by Hopeyyy
This time won't you save me?
I think it's time I gice up. Or have I already given up?
Is life really planned out from the moment you take your first breath? If it is, is there a reason some of us have a "destiny" to be lost? Are we there to get saved? Or are we here because even if we can't deal with our own problems, we can solve everybody elses? No matter if their problem is the same or more difficult then our own?
What am I worth?
Nothing.
I feel like nothing. That noone cares for me in real life. Yeah!! I KNOW I COULD BE WORSE! But does that help my current problem?! Uhh....no!
This time won't somebody save me?
I have this biological Dad. And guess what? He annoys me. The situation drives me insane
It is all too much and I cant handle it
I TRY believe me, I do.
I put on a smile
Tell everyone Im okay
Make it look like easy
But when inside I am so unsure
All last year and this summer I blocked everything out, and now it becomes second nature. I can't stop
I forget everything, I try to solve and anyalze my situations, it wont happen. Worse then writers block
I am so scared. Sometimes I just someone to hold me while I cry. Just hold meand say nothing.
I have noone for that. I looked over all the names. All the faces. None.
I think of my boyfriend Bryan. BUT (of course theres always a but
) He never has time for me. He wont text me at all, I cant talk to him on the phone, because I dont have one. Hes a junior and I'm a sophmore, so we have seprate lunchs. Which means I hardly seem at school. And thats the only time I see him.
I give up. I just give up on everything. It's not worth it anymore. I feel like cutting, a nice sharp blade
Bugt theres none near me. And I locked myself in my room forbidding my self not to go out any further near my family.
So. Ya. Staring at the wall, sad emo music. I'm giving up.
I think it's time I gice up. Or have I already given up?
Is life really planned out from the moment you take your first breath? If it is, is there a reason some of us have a "destiny" to be lost? Are we there to get saved? Or are we here because even if we can't deal with our own problems, we can solve everybody elses? No matter if their problem is the same or more difficult then our own?
What am I worth?
Nothing.
I feel like nothing. That noone cares for me in real life. Yeah!! I KNOW I COULD BE WORSE! But does that help my current problem?! Uhh....no!
This time won't somebody save me?
I have this biological Dad. And guess what? He annoys me. The situation drives me insane
It is all too much and I cant handle it
I TRY believe me, I do.
I put on a smile
Tell everyone Im okay Make it look like easy But when inside I am so unsureAll last year and this summer I blocked everything out, and now it becomes second nature. I can't stop
I forget everything, I try to solve and anyalze my situations, it wont happen. Worse then writers block
I am so scared. Sometimes I just someone to hold me while I cry. Just hold meand say nothing.
I have noone for that. I looked over all the names. All the faces. None.
I think of my boyfriend Bryan. BUT (of course theres always a but
) He never has time for me. He wont text me at all, I cant talk to him on the phone, because I dont have one. Hes a junior and I'm a sophmore, so we have seprate lunchs. Which means I hardly seem at school. And thats the only time I see him.I give up. I just give up on everything. It's not worth it anymore. I feel like cutting, a nice sharp blade
Bugt theres none near me. And I locked myself in my room forbidding my self not to go out any further near my family.
So. Ya. Staring at the wall, sad emo music. I'm giving up.
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Stay strong tonight lovely! You don't need the blade! Call your boyfriend up this weekend, hang out with him. And think about it, advise yourself! if somebody came to you with your own problems, how would you advise them?Posted September 4th 2011 at 08:03 PM by Coffee.
