I feel awful.

You know, my mom really hurt my feelings today. We argue a lot and I'm used to that, but she said something really out of line today.

I was helping clean out the attic. There were tons of empty boxes up there, and we were taking them all out back to the burn barrel to get rid of them. I was at the top of the stairs, and mom told me to just slide the boxes down and she'd set them all by the back door. I slid a really big one down, and then there was a very small box. It wasn't going to slide down those stairs, it was really small and would stop halfway. So instead, I very gently tossed it and it landed next to mom, right where I aimed. My mom suddenly flipped out, yelling at me for throwing the box instead of sliding it, and then she accused me of throwing the box on purpose in an attempt to hit her with it.

Why would I do something like that? Answer, I wouldn't. Yeah, we argue a lot and we don't really see eye to eye, and yes most of our beliefs are very different, but I wouldn't throw a box at my own mother's head just to try to hurt her! I can't believe she'd accuse me of something like that. After she made that accusation, all I could think was "Is that really what she thinks of me? Is that really the kind of person she thinks I am? Does she really think I'm that bad a person?"

I'm sorry, I guess I'm just venting. It just really surprised me, and it hurt more than I thought it would.