i'm just done i cant take this anymore i feel so alone chelseys gone my life is falling apart its a year tomorrow since my little brother killed himself he was 11 and it was my fault that he died ive never told anyone this but last thing i ever said to him was that he was a worthless peice of crap who no one loves or could ever love so do us all a favor and kill yourself no one would miss you we had a fight i never meant it but i can never take it back. its been almost a year since i started cutting...

to be honest i dont want to die i just want to see chelsey i think its finally hit me that i'll never see chelsey again. i went to her funeral it was a open casket she doesn't even look like herself i had to leave and come home i couldn't handle it. i just miss her so much. i should be dead not her. its my fault she was there when the drunk driver was there i told her to come home cause i needed her if she didnt leave then she wouldn't of been there to get hit. i miss her and i just don't know what...

How come I get the chance to live my life and Chelsey doesn't it's not fair. i feel so lost, sad, angry, guilty, depressed, confused, hurt, heartbroken and so many other things the worst part is she was about 3 minutes away from home. I was reading through my texts and last text Chelsey sent me said I miss you. She sent it coming home from the mall I only know that cause she said before that text leaving now be home in 15 I replied ok then she sent me the I miss you one and I replied I miss you...

my sister got hit by a drunk driver and she passed away earlier this morning i miss her so much she did so much for me if it weren't for her i would not be where i am today. i keep asking myself why her and i cannot come up with a answer. i wish it were me instead of her she meant the world to me its not fair. i cannot bring myself to go into my room cause me and her shared a room. its not fair she was to young to die she was only 14 she was out with her friends having fun she was almost home she...

well my arm is in a cast i punched a wall and broke my wrist i cut sunday and i feel like cutting again i want to so so bad. i haven't eaten since sunday everytime i try to i end up in tears i just cant bring myself to eat. im losing my battle to everything i just cant take much more. i dont really feel any emotion anymore. im just tired of living this way. i just dont know what to do i want to get better so bad i wanted to get better before school starts but now that will be impossible im tired...

i still have no idea what is making me feel this upset. i still haven't cut but its so hard not to. i want to give in so fucking bad i want to tear my arm up. i just don't care anymore i just want to be done with everything and everyone forever im tired of feeling this way and not knowing why. i just dont want to deal with this or anything anymore. im just ready to give up. i just quit goodbye