soo, i think i am better now. not sure. i didn't cry for like 3-4 days. then i did one day. after that i haven't really cried that much...well i did yesterday for a little bit...then today cause my aunt was in the ER & she is getting surgery in the 7th as it is so i was worried. but she is fine now. (: mom still hasn't made me an appointmet to find out if i have anxiety &/or depression, cause it runs in the family and my mom herself has depression...but if she doesn't do it soon, imma ask...

so lastnight my mom actually let me stay at my boyfriend's lastnight & we were havin a great time. we took pictures & were making vidoes with my brother & my boyfriend's friend. then when he went to go upload them on youtube, he was showing me this video of two girls dancing and he said that 'the one on the right' was one of his ex-es. and boy was she pretty & she could dance...she was physically things i am not. so i guess i was getting jealous & i sat there not about to cry,...

well i thought i had my crying under control...then it started up again. but only when i can't do something with my boyfriend, like today, after i was done at my grandma's & mom got home i was able to go to his house. well mom had to work a little later than usual & my brother didn't have anywhere to go & i couldn't leave him home by his-self. so i started crying because everything was figured out when my brother had went to his friends...so i just cried & cried...but not as hard...

so every since i have been on the depo shot, i have been crying for no reason and on monday i believe i went insane. cause i got off the phone with my boyfriend and just started crying for no reason, then i got angry and was hitting myself in the head & i even hit myself in the head with the phone a couple of time. but then when i took a shower i was fine while i was in the shower, then when i got out i started crying again and then i had apologized to my boyfriend afterwards (because i was...