Well, I officially have a bf now! We're going on our first date this weekend, but we're officially in a relationship now. We talked about it and we both are ok with people knowing. We haven't even held hands yet, but probably will tomorrow
SOOOOOOOOO excited to have my very first bf!

Ok, well Tyler and I are going out this weekend.
And:
-he asked me to winter formal
-asked if my "husband" would be jealous (it's a joke, my "husband" is really just my friend (and a girl))
-said his mom really wants to meet me
-joked that dating me is dangerous

Dating!!!!! EEEEEEE! I'm very excited!!!! I've never even been on a date before and now I'm dating someone. Hehehehehehe. I can't stop smiling. This is the happiest...

It's beinging to get so hard having this long distance between Tommy and I. I think it would be a lot easier if he was home a little more often or had time to talk to me but he's been so busy with work that there has been little to no time to talk to me. Sure I understand that he's been busy working and that he's getting money to move here and that he's trying to do all he can right now so when he tells them that I'm going to come visit in April they'll hopefully give him the time off...but as of...

Frustration begins to set in as more things begin to go wrong in my life. Sure maybe they are simple things that I have no control over but that's the point on why they are so frustrating. First it was the snow, sure it was nice for a few days to have that sparkly white stuff all about but then two weeks into it and 20+ inches later it just beings to get a bit old. Next was the rain and flooding that is still effecting us as of right now. Roads are closed left and right and it's hard to get out...

Ok, well I was afraid to tell my friend Ellie who I like because I was worried she might tell him, which isn't the worst thing, but I'm not quite ready for that yet and I'd rather he hear it from me.
Well she spent the night and was joking about that I was texting my "lover" and my brother, Nick, thought she was serious and asked if he knew I liked him. Ellie then got curious and kept pestering me until I told her. I shouldn't have given in, but she's my friend and I know I should...

Ok so this is my first blog so I apologize if it sucks.

Ok a little background info about the situation. #1 (a friend of mine) and #2 are good friends.

#2 doesn't have alot of friends because of her attitude, she crys and tells the teacher when anyone says anything bad about her but she is constantly putting down the people around her. She even made fun of #1 because of her race and she acts like it's not a big deal.

She's also getting very over-controlling...

Lights all around, beaming on me. I step forward and look around but no one seems to be in the same room I am. I call out, nothing but my echoes reach back to my ears. I begin to walk the clicking of my shoes resonate in this, what seems to be a room, I'm in. The heat of the lights slowly begin to make me feel light headed and dizzy but I continue to walk, ignoring my bodies apparent need to rest. I'm searching, for what I don't know but there’s a need to search for someone or something. Though...

Today he:
-caught up with me on my way to lunch
-asked me if it was ok if he "bothered" me again at lunch (to which the only reply I could manage was an excited sounding "sure")
-he sat with me all lunch and we ended up being the only ones left at the table and we were still talking
-he had to go see a teacher a little before lunch ended and I had to go to the bathroom so we left and he said he'd text me later
-he caught up with me on my way to my...

I dont really know what im supposed to do?
Sit here and talk about why i like everyone else has "problems"
I think jamie made me come on here for a reason somehow. Not quite sure what?
I dont want to say things and seem cliche and "emo"
But yet..this is all new to me
I dont dot he being helped
im the helper
so come to me

x

I've been having the same dream over and over again..... A dream that I'm alone, no one around. In that dream all of me, fingers, cheeks, fingernails, feet, teeth, bones, flesh, even the tips of my hair ache from such loneliness. The world filled with warmth the one of us together seems more like a dream than the dream I'm having now. But I feel that so long as I don't lose the memory from those days I may be able to stay connected to reality. If only by a fragile, fragile hold.

Though...