I dont really know what im supposed to do?
Sit here and talk about why i like everyone else has "problems"
I think jamie made me come on here for a reason somehow. Not quite sure what?
I dont want to say things and seem cliche and "emo"
But yet..this is all new to me
I dont dot he being helped
im the helper
so come to me

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I've been having the same dream over and over again..... A dream that I'm alone, no one around. In that dream all of me, fingers, cheeks, fingernails, feet, teeth, bones, flesh, even the tips of my hair ache from such loneliness. The world filled with warmth the one of us together seems more like a dream than the dream I'm having now. But I feel that so long as I don't lose the memory from those days I may be able to stay connected to reality. If only by a fragile, fragile hold.

Though...

Yesterday he walked me to lunch, stood there then went to his table. Today, he sat with me! I'm so happy. Here's a list of what he did today:
-sat behind me in class
-walked with me to lunch
-sat with me at lunch
-walked a little ways to another class with me, but he had to make a stop along the way and I needed to talk to the teacher so I went ahead
-sat diagonally from me in this class (it was the closest open seat)
-walked to the library with me when...

Tyler is the guy I like and he walked with me to lunch today. He walked over to the table I sit at, but I was nervous and stupid and just sat down and didn't say any more to him. So he said he'd stop bugging me and went to sit with his friends. I was kicking myself all lunch for not doing something, but then as I was leaving lunch he said bye to me. And we texted a few times tonight. I'm trying to show an intrest in him without being too forward.
I'm new to relationship stuff and so it's really...