It gets worse.
Today has been bad.
That's a lie.
Today has been awful.
Understatement.
The blade helps though.
That's what I live for.
Pain, and Hurt.

I've never been this low...
Even when it was bad, at its worst..
It wasn't like this..
And this is a good day..
I managed to smile today...
I can't think of a reason to carry on...
I hate everyone, everyone hates me...
Can't remember the last day I didn't cry...
I don't see a future, I hardly see a tomorrow...
How can I keep going like this? I don't even know if I want to keep fighting

Something is not right.
Apart from my Im back message I haven't posted in the forums.
I think I've forgotten how to help people...
This is unacceptable.
I am unacceptable.
This. Must. Change.

I feel like dying right now
I hate you for doing this to me
Fuck you
You're going to lose me by doing this..
But if you're going to screw me up.
Suicidal