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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
One of the main problems I will have working with them is having to deal with people like YOU who refuse to let them get the help they need. If you would just LISTEN the professionals could tell you why it will probably be necessary, but instead you're going to make your kid suffer because you aren't comfortable with something. GET OVER IT!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I cant go out?! But im in a middle of a spring vaications, i have 6 more days to study... And i can go out with him only once a week, and you deny me that? Yeah, thats just great caring of your kid, distrupt his social life... Good job mom...
(Very triggering)
I want to cut right now. I've never cut, I haven't wanted to in three years. Just as I was starting to get comfortable being "probably transgender" the pain, insecurity, fear, and doubt all came back. I need an escape. I want to see blood right now, I want to cover myself in it, taste it, revel in sweet, sweet depravity. I want to turn my humanity off and forget these problems and break every single taboo in the fucking universe. Not like I'm going to. Of course I'm not going to. But I want to, because at least then I can call myself a monster, depraved, instead of not even knowing who or what I am anymore. I feel sexless. Not as in androgynous, not just as in not seeing myself as either gender. I feel inhuman and sick and wrong and like some sort of "thing"'instead of a person.
I hate this. I want to bury it again, and I'm almost, but not quite willing to bury it in blood. I said in a blog post that I was sure I was never going to cut, but unsure that I wouldn't ever come close. This is one of those times of me coming close.
Mimi, NO! I still love you baby!
Put down the scisors, dont hurt yourself, its not worth it... I will give you some space... You can talk to me when you want to...
Fuck this shit, i will blow up... Its 3 am, i cant sleep, im tired and im shaking, and i will just kill the first person who says something to me... AAAAARGH... Fuck this shit... Good night, fuck you all...
Yep, depression you can fuck off. Yep, my supposed friends you can fuck off too. The whole world can fuck off because I'm fucking done. Mother fucking hate every fucking thing ever.
Look, i will chase you on threads, on pms and on vms, im not scared of the world...
And im not asking for love, i was just asking for an honest answer... You gave me one, it hurts a bit, but ok...
I cant just get over you, youre not a fucking toy which you can replace! Youre ireplacable!
Realise i dont love you? What are you talking about? Why wouldnt i love you? Isnt that my choice?
Anonymous mode. No posts with location, data, information or anything helpful for tracing. Multiproxy. No "About me". No profiles on the internet except this one. Trace me down now you motherfuckers.
I guess I've made my decision if I can't register for those classes at the same time (even though I wouldn't be taking them together), but if I decide to do that and then find out that they held that class and she didn't teach it I will have delayed myself 5 MONTHS for NOTHING Also, if she's teaching it in the fall I'll have NO CHOICE, but to TORTURE myself by taking it with her again and I will be BEYOND PISSED! Hoping the system won't catch me, expecting it will.
Update: so it let me register for both, but I got WAITLISTED for both sections I wanted, so now we wait and see. If they cancel that or she's teaching it, the choice is easy, but if not then I still have to wait for someone to drop a section of that for it to be worth doing! Or hope they add more sections of that since the waitlists are all full and I can get added to one of those (which again she will not be teaching)
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I feel like an idiot. All this time she was manipulating me, spinning me around her finger. I was a puppet. She was a fucking manipulator... Well, Im better off without her. New start, new everything... No bounding to anyone, IDGAF politics... Fucking manipulator...
Okay, thank you, now WAS THAT SO HARD!!?? This has tortured me for a month and we pretty much solved it in a 10 minute conversation. I'm still set to adjust registration for either semester, but I'm not touching ANYTHING until I hear one way or the other. Prac will be no problem that way, but I'm a little concerned about internship now. Plus I can still get out when I wanted as long as I'm not taking on too much. Oh, and that e-mail you had me send you, I SENT IT 2 WEEKS AGO, but I will edit and send it again, this time you 'd better GET IT.
Okay, now I'm getting random schedule change e-mails that show nothing changed, ANSWER ME and tell me what the hell is going on because this is getting ridiculous now
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Yeah, I'm sure you're joking. But even if you are, I don't think you realize how much it hurts when you say "Go away, no one wants you here," whenever I walk over to you, and my friend. Who, by the way, I've known for six years. And the only reason why I'm NOT saying anything is because I know you're going through a hard time.
But honestly, I can't take this **** anymore.
"Don't tell me you're not beautiful. You're the kind of beautiful the blind would see if we could figure out some way to give them three seconds of sight." -- Shane Koyczan
You call me..... and somehow the whole time, though I'm smiling because I FUCKING LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK, you rub it in my face that everything is my fault, that I'm a bitch and you DON'T want me. Ever again.
It hurts so much.... if you call back.... I don't think I'm going to get through that call without scissors in my hand...
I'm never good enough to you.... Why is it that when I tell you something I'm upset about you just scold me?! I need you to comfort me!! If I wanted scolded I'd just listen to the fucking voices in my head!! I just want you to love me like I love you.....
I just want to be loved... ),:
Everything was begining to go back to normal..
then you made me fear for my own safety.
Admit it you never loved me, I was used...
I'll bounce back, guys use me all the time
.....“You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself.”.....
TRIGGERING [SH] Well, this is a screaming thread so lets scream... This is triggering on SH btw...
I came to school. All classes was ok, i showed my cuts to people, and most of them told me im an Emo. I didnt know what that was so i was like: ok, meh... As im not discarded from school, but im not popular either, i didnt got much hate. And there was the gym class... t-shirts, and my cuts are on my hand... All saw, only few commented, and teased me that im an emo. Well, fuck you all, Im not a fucking emo... And if i am, its not your fucking problem... Good thing that when you understand the joke and you can joke on your account, people will stop. They did, but that yelling and fighting with them and them saying: Dont cut no more, or ill cut you... And what not... After me putting up some threats, they stoped. I know they "care" but i dont want them to "care". Im me, im myself, and fuck you all who dont support me. You support me, good. You dont support me, get the fuck out of my life. Its that easy... And now im home and my heart is beating like a maniac because im affraid my parents will see... I think they will send me to a mental hospital if they find out. I dont know, but i do know i wont admit shit to them, because they have no support. After that being said, Im gonna fuck off and play some games... And yeah, fuck you world.
I really hate myself today.
People keep proving that they don't actually want me around. I already know I'm disposable, you don't need to shove it in my face.
There isn't a single thing I'm good at.
I'm not motivated to do anything.
Sorry I couldn't be there, I was tied to a rocking chair.
Getting to the point where i hate this forum, noone replies, 80% of the staff is on fucking leave and i've been on here since 2009 and not one person has fucking reached out to me hence why im on and off here all the fucking time.
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.