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Why Me? Here is a safe space to let it all out, where you can rant about all the bad things life throws your way. Sometimes it just helps to ask "why me?"
Now the anxiety kicks in, but it's still better than last time. And if you don't like it, that's too damn bad. You should've given me the hours to begin with.
It would really help if it was about something, rather than just there, but at least this is familiar, and if I don't like it or can't do it, I can quit.
I'm kind of afraid the extra day will be too much, but it's only 4 hours; how bad could it be?
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; March 10th 2022 at 03:26 AM.
2 days back and I already NEED my day off. But I don't get it, because I had to get another job. Because of you.
Just FYI: it looks like I'm going to need those days off or adjusted, I have the time, so I'm taking them with or without notice and if you give me a hard time, YOU made me do this, so don't even start.
This is A LOT for a 16 hour job, Not only do I have to adjust availability for the job itself, but for mandatory monthly meetings and training too. How much notice do I get for those and how long are they?! Plus, anxiety is through the roof, I already almost forgot a dose of meds, and I haven't even started yet! This might be too much. I guess I don't get to sleep or get days off anymore.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; March 15th 2022 at 06:02 AM.
I was in agonising pain yet again this morning. My body was so fucking weak, I could hardly move, I needed my mum to pick me up to take me to the bed, and even then I collapsed on the floor. My stomach was in absolute agony. I nearly passed out. My ears were ringing. I was so weak mum had to pour water into my mouth at one point, apparently I was really grey. I think I'm over the worst for now, but it's made me realise that I need to go to the doctor about it, no matter how embarassing the problem. I just can't go through that pain again. I can't do it again.
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety
I've definitely had worse, but that was pretty bad. And I can only assume it was worse than she let on. The speed will come, and if either that or not being able to reach things doesn't get better, then it doesn't work out and I leave. I don't exactly want to go back, but I'm not dreading it either.
I don't care if you vent, but I suspect you're talking about me behind my back. I guess it's better if I never know what you're saying, if you're saying it. And we're dealing with the elderly, WHY is the water SCAULDING HOT to begin with? How about instead of telling me to be more careful with it, you just turn the temperature down?! I pretty much burned myself getting it too, but no one cares about that.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; March 22nd 2022 at 05:02 AM.
I haven't even started (yet) and I'm already addicted. I'm fantasising about it, wanting to do it even though I'm in a pretty decent mood. What's the matter with me?
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety
My job could be posted again, but considering that with just 2 of us, I already don't have enough hours, if you hire someone else or over me again, it will just remind me of every reason I took the other job and limited my hours so much to begin with. You are either horrible, clueless, or both.
You're trying to run everyone off except your special chosen few, and it couldn't be more obvious if you flat out said so. We need a complete overhaul of management and you all need some serious karma. You can't get away with fucking with other people's lives because you decide you don't like them for no reason.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; March 25th 2022 at 03:55 AM.
I WANT TO TEAR MY ROOM APART I WANT TO THROW THINGS I WANT TO STAMP MY FEET AND PUNCH MYSELF AND PUNCH PEOPLE AND SCREAM SO LOUD MY LUNGS GIVE OUT I CNT I CANT I CANT IM SO FUCKING ANGRY
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety
why. the fuck. do you have to. listen to your fucking music so fucking loud and every single fucking day!
can't you imagine that in this block live other people who ARE FUCKING ANNOYED BY YOUR FUCKING MUSIC?????????!!!!!!!
If you switch my day off permanently, I will literally NEVER have any. Not that you give a shit about anybody but yourselves and your little clique that tolerates your bullshit.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
I'm meeting a friend I haven't seen in many, many years on Wednesday. Of course I'm excited but I'm also fucking terrified. It's hard enough meeting people I talk to on the regular. I'm so scared. I'm going to be so awkward, and drive them away. I won't know what to say. I'll be so dumb. Fuckfuckfuck
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety
I fucking knew it, if they can't come up with an accommodation that helps, I'm going to have to quit. Fuck this disability. And I just realized I made ANOTHER mistake! Nothing I can do about it now, just wait for them to yell at me tomorrow.
fuck.
I'm not even talking about it. Especially if you're not in a better mood. If nothing can be done and you're firing me, lets fucking go and get it over with so I can go back to having no money.
Absolutely no mention of it. I'll just go in prepared to be fired so I'm not blindsided.
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Last edited by Kate*; March 30th 2022 at 01:34 AM.
One more thing this fucking disability has cost me. Is there NOTHING I'm capable of?! How the hell am I supposed to live and support myself if I get "nicely" let go from EVERY job I've ever had because of something I have ZERO control over?!
Member Since: September 19, 2007
LHO: March 31, 2008- October 13, 2012
"Freedom is what you do with what's been done to you." Jean Paul Sarte
Everything that used to make me happy now makes me stressed and anxious and angry and upset. I have no interests anymore because it all just makes me feel like shit. I dont want to live like this anymore.
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety
I really really really want to do something bad and I can't even get that right because the universe likes to fuck me over in small ways that make everything fucking impossible god fucking damn it
It's enough to live a live with love until we die Autism, Depression, Anxiety