Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Odyne]

So. Much. Anxiety

[Everglow.]

Realising how far I've fallen. Thought I had it under control but I'm not sure I do.

[Odyne]

So SICK of anxiety.. Arhg!

[Lunar]

I just wish things were simple, like they used to be when I was growing up. I HATE having to deal with this shit. HATE IT. Bills and responsibilities they said. That would be the hardest thing to deal with they said. Well yeah right.

[Tigereyes]

Fuck. Life.

Everything I try to do to take care of myself as things keep getting worse (crazy how that's even still possible at this point..) just fucking blows up in my face and pushes me down further. I am powerless to do anything more than I already am and have been. This is how life is gonna be? Well fuck it then. I'm done.

[Odyne]

SO exhausted

[Everglow.]

Not sure how I'll deal with this. I don't want to be another person who lets him down, but I'm worried. This is going to be hard. I don't like adult decisions as big as this.

[Odyne]

Cant sleep.. I need sleeep.

[Kate*]

If you really appreciate us, you'd better fucking prove it. If you won't adjust at all for this. You're not only forcing exposure, but causing massive burn out!

[Everglow.]

So. Freaking. Anxious.

[Ragamuffin]

My whole body is aching

[Everglow.]

There's no more face to face volunteering for the foreseeable future. I'm possibly not going to see my member again.

[Everglow.]

what if this never ends?

[Mindfulness.]

Fuck work.

[Lunar]

I'm only doing what's best for everyone in this situation. I wished you could see that.

[Tigereyes]

It's confirmed that I will get paid less (not enough) for who knows how long.

Do I have higher chance of dying from it? Do I even care?

[Everglow.]

I'm terrified of getting the train into work this weekend. I want to hide until this is all over.

[Tigereyes]

Once again clinging to the darkest media I can find. Sometimes that's the only way I feel understood and connected. Sometimes this is my only light...

[Kate*]

I'm 99.9% sure I'm calling off tomorrow. I wanted time off like everyone else, and I guess I'm going to get it. It just sucks that I have to be sick for it. Hopefully, I won't need 2 days in a row, but I have 3 weeks worth, and this is exactly what it's for!

[Kate*]

Thank God I got a manager who likes me and is going to lie about the reason for me so I won't need a doctor's note. For a cold. On a weekend. With everything closed anyway.

But how come I need a doctors note to go back, when you're forcing us to be exposed, but people who aren't supposed to be out can come in there all day long?! It sounds like you're covering your ass to me, after making the wrong decision!

[Everglow.]

I'm not ok. I'm not ok.

[Lunar]

Ready to be over this. Ready to be over you. Can't wait for the day you aren't in my life anymore.

[Kate*]

And you're still going to do it, right because the time hasn't been subtracted yet?! Please don't make me produce a doctor's note!

[Mindfulness.]

Why can't I find a job I actually enjoy?

[Everglow.]

I knew it was coming, but it still hurts. I'll miss you so much. This whole year is shit.

[Everglow.]

I can't stop crying.

[Mindfulness.]

OK, COVID-19 can go away now.

I'm having anxiety about all the changes

[Everglow.]

I really feel like I'm going to break soon.

[Mindfulness.]

I wish people would stop bombarding me as soon as I walk through the door after a 10 hour shift.

Please please please let us all get through this.

[Nala.]

So tired of these sinus issues.

[Everglow.]

Missing you today.

[Everglow.]

I just want this all to be over.

[Mindfulness.]

I just want to be able to work with animals already.

[Lunar]

I wished things were always this easy. Lay off me.

[Mindfulness.]

I don't want to be there anymore.

[Kate*]

Triggered three times in two days. You can say all you want that it happened for a reason and I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be right now, but even if I mostly believe that, it doesn't make this any less painful. Normally, I would consider making an appointment to deal with it, but I hesitate to do that given the circumstances. I don't even know if they're doing in-person sessions right now.

[Everglow.]

Only been sat here half an hour and I'm already fed up of not knowing what I'm doing.

I hate anxiety