Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.

[Kate*]

If things continue trending this way or worse for very long, I may need to look for another job. And I REALLY want to job search with a disability during a pandemic.

[Mindfulness.]

I always get knock back after knock back.

[Kate*]

Even if it wasn't a total mess, I don't want to be there forever. But, with no idea what I want to, or can do instead, and the fact that I'd be job searching with a disability in a pandemic, I'm going to be stuck there for the rest of my life.

[Mindfulness.]

I can't wait until all of my studies are over.

[Ragamuffin]

Please don’t forget about me

[Kate*]

This week is going to suck, second shot early tomorrow, probably worse side effects, GM is gone, and then I get a 3-day weekend, and I have to get up again, for a telehealth appt. that will take all of 5 minutes.

It's NEVER going to happen. Even if it was possible before, it isn't now so STOP thinking about it!

I can't handle my anxiety. What will help it get better?

[Mindfulness.]

I'm so tired all the time. I don't know how much more I can take.

[Kate*]

Today was about as bad as I expected, and I don't know what the fuck is going on at work, but if I end up defaulted to lead, there better be adjustments to reflect it and the training I never got because I don't know what I'm doing.

[Kate*]

Yes, I felt bad enough to call off, between the vaccine side effects and the bad mental health day yesterday, I needed it. This is EXACTLY what paid sick time is for.

I feel like I want to die and I have No idea as to why.

[Everglow.]

I'm exhausted. I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night and the only reason I can find for it is that I had to go back to work.

[Kate*]

If I were more impulsive, I would've quit on the spot. Job searching with a disability in a pandemic is NOT a good idea, but I don't know how long I can keep dealing with this shit.

This anxiety is the worst

[Kate*]

...and I've managed to trigger myself. Joy

I NEED a vacation and once scheduled, I have to wait 3 weeks for it. Plus changes in routine and being semi-triggered. I'm just not okay right now. I used to do this all the time and it was worse. I don't know what I need, but something is really off. Maybe it's time to go back to therapy. I didn't want to bother figuring out the technology, but maybe they're back in person, or will be once I can get in or if you're fully vaccinated. It might be time to call and see what the options are.

[Mindfulness.]

I can't take much more of this stress anymore.

Fuck this goddamn insurance and FUCK the healthcare system in the United States!

I've tried everything I can think of to cope with my anxiety and I'm failing. I hate this

[Kate*]

Even if it's just for 3 days of cat sitting, I HATE changes in routine. I don't know what I need right now, but I'm not okay.

It's only Tuesday. I hope I can make it through this week in one piece. My anxiety is so bad

[Mindfulness.]

Just one day at a time...

[Everglow.]

I'm so tired, and so not in the mood for this anymore.

[Ral.]

Funny how when it suits you I’m your favourite person, and when it doesn’t it’s like I don’t fucking exist.

[Odyne]

The voices inside my head are screaming.

[Kate*]

Please, for the love of God, let it only be one Saturday and don't tell me my schedule will now default to that.

I hate myself for missing you.

[Kate*]

Mind your own fucking business!

Learn how to, and then do your fucking job; I'm OVER doing it for you.

[Starseeker]

I don't know what to do with myself.
I wish I could ride motorbikes.

What the fuck? We're supposedly "dating" but you haven't made an effort to talk to me in over a fucking week! Can you really call that a relationship? If you aren't into me anymore just fucking say so!

[Mindfulness.]

I wish my body clock didn't wake me up so early.

I can't believe this is happening.

[Kate*]

I want MORE food. THIS is why I'm fat!

If I walk in, and it looks anything like I'm dreading, or there's a nasty response, it will take just about everything in me not to walk back out.

I guess you are just like all the rest of them. Will you even remember my name?

[Everglow.]

I don't feel myself at the moment. My head is all over the place.

[Mindfulness.]

There is so much to do...

Fuck, I am still in love with you.

[Everglow.]

Tuesday nights are always bad. Yet again I cant sleep and I feel like I'm dying.

[Kate*]

Yeah, it's time to start looking. You are NOT going to nit pick me while expecting me to pick up the slack of promoted people who keep quitting and telling me I'm not promotable because of experience I have no way of getting, The whole place is a fucking mess NOBODY knows what the fuck they're doing. If I didn't do the shit, it wouldn't get done, which apparently you'd prefer. No, I can't do everything.

[Mindfulness.]

Urgh, I hate how this has happened.

I should probably be concerned that I don't want to wake up tomorrow