What are you thinking?

[Kintsukuroi.]

How I have so much homework and studying to do but my mind is done with studying. How I want to cut, but I can't till later and how I really don't feel like being social right mow

[hocus pocus]

My head is going to explode.

[mindflower]

*triggering*

How just a couple of minutes ago, I was going to kill myself in the bathroom even before class started, and as I was getting ready to leave, prayer started and... and the prayer was my favorite bible verse, the one that used to save my life when I needed it most?
"Cast all of your anxieties on God, because he cares for you" 1 Peters 5:7
....I just.... wow...

[Storyteller.]

I'm thinking about how I probably shouldn't be laughing so much at something that isn't even funny.

[Kintsukuroi.]

How stupid people are and how much trouble I'm in for something that isn't even my fault.I hate people at the moment.

[Rivière]

Thinking of a pleasant way of responding is rather hard..

[Azure.]

My back is killing me. I hate everything and everyone.

[Rivière]

TeenHelp please stop breaking.

I should get to sleep and I am feeling a bit tired, but I don't want to sleep. I want to finish watching this TV series, so close to the final episode!

[Azure.]

I need to study.

[Not_here]

stressed out
depressed
not in the mood for anything
don't want to go home though
it's 8pm so the earliest I'll be home is 9pm
maybe I should just not go home at all
but where will I stay overnight
need to disappear
need to punish myself for being bad
bad bad bad bad bad
but I miss my cat so much </3

[Not_here]

Last day of class today. I usually enjoy working in scene shop but I feel like I didn't do well last time. My hands aren't strong and flexible. But trying to be nice to myself and instead of canceling I'm gonna go to scene shop and do my best. Because if the same thing happened to a friend I'd encourage them to not give up and to face the challenge and if I pretend I'm my own friend I shall do the same

[Rivière]

Typical, right when he cut up the envelope, I need it.

Why on earth am I up this early?
That only makes me bored earlier in the day then I can't cope.

[Pirouette]

Ahhhhh ten page essay due in less than a week! Why do you do this to meee?!?

[Not_here]

Feeling like I'm forgetting something important but can't remember the topic ): ever feel like when you're in a good mood people assume your problems are gone all of a sudden or like being positive is seen as not having gone through things


Not even sure who I'm directing this at. Maybe it's past experiences/observations mixed with social anxiety

[Not_here]

My stupid face keeps being all bloody from all corners. Guess who's fault that is. That's what I do when my nerves explode from feeling so guilty

[Twinge]

Life is black and blue, but is that a good thing... I'm not sure anymore. Turning off my internet RIGHT NOW. -.-

Edit: Just found a song I didn't know I have, by a favorite band... so so happy.

[stelles]

Seventh grade me, you are currently my favorite person ever to be in this universe. Because unlike sixth grade me, you took notes in science class and paid attention and did all those worksheets and understood things like mitosis and wrote it down! And that means that I'm NOT going to fail my standardized test tomorrow. Thanks a billion, seventh grade me. I cannot express how much you just saved my butt.
Sixth grade me, I'm disappointed. I can't find a single thing about clouds or moon phases or whatever the heck else from sixth grade. (And I know I just said how great and how terrible I am/was. But sometimes you need to send a letter to the past )

Why is it so gosh darn hot???

[Rivière]

Would have been nice to have had a bit of forewarning because hey, none of us could have known without.

[Azure.]

Cat, you need to stop getting excited over birds. They're birds. They're not gonna hurt you and they don't want to be your friend.
Sincerely,
Your human.

[Not_here]

Been helping classmates with their own writing that I abandoned my own needs to finish this project once and for all. I spent most of my schoolwork time reading their work, thinking about it, making comments and suggestions. The professor asked us to do this, but I have went far beyond her requirements because I'm just...idk. I don't want to leave them hanging and I need to finish something I started. They on the other hand, rushed through mine and said blah blah blah, very good. -_-
Tomorrow I must take my writing piece to the writing center and get help with it asap because I am so stuck with it and it's weird because I know exactly what I want to say but have never had this kind of inability to articulate. I thought about it so much but writing it out seems so awful. Ugh. And it's supposed to be creative. I'm telling you if I'm going to be judged on creativity, I'll die. I worked on this project for 3 weeks. Still haven't finished. First wrote too much then wrote too little. Something about it is off.


oh and I'm thinking about my cultural anthro final exam tomorrow ):

[Rivière]

It's surprisingly sunny out today, so glad the weather's warming up.

[Azure.]

I messed up and I'm really mad and I hope no one notices.

[Not_here]

wish I didn't cry so much on my train ride home. Would have liked if people weren't staring so much.

[Azure.]

I have a procrastinating problem!

[Twinge]

Can't make up my mind what to do tomorrow after school... so many obligations. I have to do something tomorrow and leave the rest for Friday, only the question is... what.

[hocus pocus]

Why didn't Mother Nature bring us Spring this year?

[Sammichez]

The weather is pretty inconsistent this year.

[kodz]

Wouldnt mind talking to or getting to know some new people, add me on snapchat! kzhang1026

[Rivière]

The end of season 3 had to be the most interesting of all of them, the way they all came together to fight for a common goal..

[Awakening]

I wish I had a group of friends to hang out with. Or even just a couple more people I could have a really good time with.

[Azure.]

My head hurts.

[Kintsukuroi.]

I wish that he would shut up and leave me alone because I really really want to cut and he isn't helping. :/ and that I am hungry but way too lazy to walk to the kitchen.

[hocus pocus]

I should go to sleep but I'd rather read for a while. Maybe I'll fall asleep while reading.

[Not_here]

This is so gross but I guess I didn't care enough...I was in the middle of cleaning and got overwhelmed so I picked at a scab and it started bleeding and I couldn't find a napkin so I used a sheet of paper that had writing in the back but I didn't need it anyway and now that paper is bloody just because I picked at a scab on the back of my elbow

[Azure.]

My tummy hurts! And I'm reeeaaaalllly tired. The weather is so strange...

[Rivière]

My stomach's going to grumble any minute. I should eat something but it's really late..

[Azure.]

I wish they would leave now. I can't deal with them anymore.