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Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 25th 2009, 05:49 PM
I'm in love with the person my ex used to be. And I hate that we don't talk anymore, even though he's changed so drastically that he's the sort of person I can't stand.
I'm also falling for two guys at the same time, one at my university, the other on the other side of the country. I would date them both, if I could.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 25th 2009, 07:14 PM
every year i say i'm not going to make it to my next birthday and once again i have [almost made it] will this year be any different? I don't know what to do anymore. To live or not to live that is the question. [[lol sorry shakespear.]]
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 09:39 AM
I really hate my best friend.
>I'm scared to get better.
>I don't think i can live without self harm.
Lauren
"The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."
"But in the ruins there is still a canvas. There is still beauty in your brokenness. The faded scars show healing reminding me that even though I’ve been in dark places, I’ve survived and learned and become stronger".
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 01:31 PM
Yeah, I'm 15, so what? Does that mean I can't love someone so much it hurts? I've loved him for over a year...not long really, but I'd do anything for him. But the worst (or maybe best?) thing is that he doesn't know, and I'll never tell him. He has a girlfriend, I tell myself I don't care, but come the f*ck on....of course I care! It kills me everyday, and God help me if I see them together...she's two years younger than him too. Fuck. I should be grateful he at least talks to me, we're friends and stuff, I see him pretty much everyday... but I love him so much. I wish he would respect me as much as I do him...I practically worship him.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 02:22 PM
Invisible font for an invisible girl
I like frogs more than I like cats.
I'm scared to tell him the truth.
My favourite food is chips. I like chips.
You're too hard to lie to.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 03:06 PM
I'm scared that no one will ever love me as much as I love him. Although he's the reason I started to self harm, and the reason I overdosed, all the rest. He might be moving away soon...that will kill me.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 03:13 PM
Even though I've never met an ugly person ...
I compare myself to all of you.
Even though big can be beautiful ...
It never will be on me.
Despite knowing what's best for me ...
I never really do it.
You might think it's caring ...
But it's just hypocricy.
I'd trust you with anything ...
But I don't listen to compliments.
I don't want anyone to know I'm damaged ...
But I want someone to notice more than anything.
Even though I often want to be alone ...
I always wanted acceptance, wanted love.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 09:07 PM
Time has run out, for me,
Everything's distant
And I don't know what to believe
It's so hard,
Lost in the world's confusion
And I need to leave
For awhile, life is so meaningless
There is nothing worth a smile
So goodbye, I'll miss you...
And I'm sorry,
But I've waited too long,
So here's my goodbye,
No one will cry over me,
I'm not worth any tears... </3
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 26th 2009, 11:42 PM
It's been a long night.
I might cut tonight and I really don't care if I do or don't. I just need to.
I feel fat. I shouldn't have eaten all of that junk today. Next month will be 6 months purge free and I feel the need to go do it right now more than anything.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 27th 2009, 05:35 PM
i broke my dads heart and moved out
because my mother lied, twisted his words and made me believe he didnt want me around anymore.
my secret is that i know for the exact reasons she had made up about dad, was the reason i was living with my dad in the first place.
i'm becoming her; i hate it.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 28th 2009, 01:11 AM
Don't tell me if I'm dying, 'cause I don't wanna know
If I can't see the sun, maybe I should go
Don't wake me 'cause I'm dreaming, of angels on the moon
Where everyone you know, never leaves too soon...
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 29th 2009, 12:00 AM
-The thought of never looking into his eyes again scares the shit out of me. What am I going to do if that day comes?
-I'm not happy with my life right now. Sometimes I wish I could move thousands of miles away and start over. Be the person I am on the inside. Because there's a different person there that nobody sees but me.
How's your life? It's been a while
God, it's good to see you smile
<3
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 29th 2009, 12:08 AM
This part's not a secret...
It hurts me so much to read these replies, because I just realized that there are so many teens who are depressed and so unhappy. I feel terrible because I want to help but I don't know how. Even in my school of 300 there are many people who aren't happy. I used to be suicidal. I overdosed many times, and I'm still working on self harm... I want to help so much... Please PM me if any of you need someone to talk to!
Here's the secret part...
I want to repair the great friendship I had with my teacher. My teacher wants this too, but my mom and dad hate him now...
One time I was bored so I went outside and crapped in my backyard. We had a dog and I wanted to see if anyone noticed the difference.
I really don't like my violin teacher. She's ancient!
I honestly don't think I can say "I love you, Dad" to my dad.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
January 31st 2009, 07:15 PM
When I ask you to let me go I want you to hold on tighter
When I tell my mom "I love you too." I NEVER really mean it
I'm afraid of love...
..but I know what it is... and I know that's what I feel for you.
I can't stop crying...
.. and I'm not sure I want to.
It is the HARDEST thing in the world for me to express how I feel in a healthy way.
I cut again.. and I think it needs stitches.
I've thought since I was 9 that I'm going to die b4 i'm 17.
I want to be happy...
.. but I've never known how, and I don't think I'll ever learn.
I wish I was as strong as you think I can be.
I wish I was able to just tell the truth...
Sometimes I just want to be alone, but in your arms at the same time, and it's such a complicated feeling.
I want someone to want me even if I don't them... and it makes me feel so selfish.\
I love you...
.. no matter how much i try to hate you.
There's things I need that I'm too afraid to ask for.
I have so many regrets... *sigh*
A Heart doesn't look both ways...
Last edited by Boxy; January 31st 2009 at 07:27 PM.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
February 2nd 2009, 06:26 PM
Even though I know I could never afford GW.. I still want to go there so badly. I'd go broke for the rest of my life to go there. But I'm not good enough to get in. :[
"You've just been B-Wildered." -Brian Wilson <3
Trumpet love; Tenderlips.
"Where there is love there is life."- Mahatma Gandhi
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11