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Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
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July 26th 2012, 01:04 PM
where to begin ...
I can't drink soda thats NOT diet without wanting to die.
Scratch that, i can't drink soda at all without wanting to die
My calorie count is obsessive, every bite counts.
i've tried to kill myself before.
i've lied. I've hurt. I've put everyone around me through so much.
i honestly believe i am the most worthless, fat, disgusting human being on the planet.
I've been self-harming for.. 4? 5 years now? i can't even remember.
my whole life has flashed before my eyes countless times.
My sock drawer has razors in it..
My scars actaully say something.
I've done almost everything on my bucket list.
my life isn't bad. I have friends... family... a roof over my head. clothes to wear. food to be (avoiding) eating. clean water. But i still can't sit with myself. i hate myself.
on the up side:
I've been number 1 at my gym. if i'm not 1, i'm 2.
i've taught at least 50 different kids how to do a cartwheel.
one time when i was 7, i got so nervous for a meet that i cried the whole time.
i've over-rotated into a higher level skill, and gotten points taken off.
I've tried to fly, and i've succeeded.
I wanna fly. So I do gymnastics instead.
I'll just keep holding on to what i believe and oh I believe in you. Give me the strength for the fight and the heart to believe cause I've got to believe in you. I feel so alive.
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July 28th 2012, 07:03 AM
I know more then I should.
I don't want to sleep, but at the same time I do.
My nightmares are making me insane.
I like starving myself because i think clearly when I'm hungry
I'm insane.
When I'm sad I think, "I got a jar of dirt, I got a jar of dirt!"
You can't change fate, but you can change your attitude towards it.
Former user: xArchDreamerx
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July 28th 2012, 07:23 AM
Im in love with a boy who lives 1000 miles away and he has a girlfriend. but yet talking to him, seeing him, hearing his voice just makes me feel complete. i feel like im too young to be in love. i dont hate my mom but i wish she would stop treating me like a child. i have never kissed anyone before and i dream about kissing him all the time. i hate my body, i hate my nose and just my whole entire face, i want to be beautiful with a beautiful body. sometimes he really does make me feel beautiful but only sometimes. i want to be with him badly i want my happily ever after. i feel like its my turn to be loved and chased after not me chasing them.
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July 28th 2012, 09:02 AM
Almost every new opportunity that becomes legal once you turn 18 and 21 I've already experienced.
Makes life feel more empty now, like I don't have much to look forward to.
And here you are living, despite it all. Lead Moderator | Disputes Committee | HelpLINK Mentor
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
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August 2nd 2012, 10:04 AM
I like having a job but hate work.
Feel free to leave me a VM anytime, I don't bite. :3
“For me, I am driven by two main philosophies: know more today about the world than I knew yesterday, and lessen the suffering of others. You'd be surprised how far that gets you.” ---Neil deGrasse Tyson
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August 8th 2012, 02:30 AM
I just want to cut then i will be happy
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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August 9th 2012, 06:15 AM
I feel so hungry right now. It isn't fair. I just want to tear my stomach out and tell it to buzz off.
I'm obsessing over a past relationship that only hurt me. And it hurt me deeply. After all he's done, I still want to sleep with him. And I'm engaged to be married to another man whom I love more than I love myself. I feel like such an ungrateful, adulterous, despicable whore.
I need a drink. I need one badly. Who cares about an entire month of sobriety down the drain? Before that it was six.
Everyone tells me their problems, but no one has the courtesy to listen to mine.
Re: Dirty Little Secrets. -
August 9th 2012, 06:25 AM
Samm I really don't need to know everything about your life. You really don't get why I've been avoiding you for the last couple of weeks do you? Because your irritating the heck out of me. I really don't care about what your dad said this morning like really? Blehhh
When I'm sad I think, "I got a jar of dirt, I got a jar of dirt!"
You can't change fate, but you can change your attitude towards it.
Former user: xArchDreamerx
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
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August 12th 2012, 02:28 AM
I'm considering going out with a guy that i just met. I dont really like him but he is so sweet. Even though im in love with my best friend. My best friend doesn't like me as more than a friend.
Used to be Misslostintears
If you ever want to talk or something, i am always here.
I've been around for a while now.
If someone tells you that something you love is wrong,
THEY ARE WRONG
IF someone tries to destroy your dreams,
SHOW THEM THAT WHAT THEY DO IS NOT GOING TO STOP YOU
YOU ARE YOUR OWN BOSS,
IT'S YOUR LIFE,
LIVE IT YOUR WAY!
Do you wanna come with me? 'Cause if you do, then I should warn you - you're gonna see all sorts of things. Ghosts from the past. Aliens from the future. The day the Earth died in a ball of flame. It won't be quiet, it won't be safe, and it won't be calm. But I'll tell you what it will be: The trip of a lifetime!
Don't trust a perfect person and don't trust a song that's flawless.
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August 16th 2012, 04:53 PM
My eating has been getting less and less again, I'm losing weight and I like it, it's not anorexia again (yet) but it could be heading that way, and honestly I don't really care.
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars."
"For those who don't care, for those who can't see, never give up, always thrive to be free."
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August 20th 2012, 04:18 AM
I really wanna relapse, I don't really care if people were mad either.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
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August 20th 2012, 05:26 AM
I don't care about stopping anymore . . . I don't care who would be disappointed - they don't care about me anyway, I don't care that it's gotten to the point where I could die, I don't care!!!!!!!!!
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August 25th 2012, 02:27 AM
I put up a front that I'm happy, that I'm okay, that I'm a female, that I'll manage, that I don't want to self harm anymore. But none of that is true. I've just self harmed again and honestly it felt so good. I want to do it some more... I wonder what would happen if I didn't eat at all tomorrow... Would I get low or?
I've said it once, I've said it twice, I've said it a thousand fucking times
That I'm OK, that I'm fine, that it's all just in my mind
But this has got the best of me, and I can't seem to sleep
It's not 'cause you're not with me, it's cause you never leave
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August 27th 2012, 03:21 AM
Im a bad, bad, bad person. I should be in all the pain that's possible. My head hurts...I think I may have punched it too hard. I'm kinda actin weird right now
When I'm sad I think, "I got a jar of dirt, I got a jar of dirt!"
You can't change fate, but you can change your attitude towards it.
Former user: xArchDreamerx
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August 27th 2012, 03:56 AM
I believe I may have accidentally, unintentionally, attempted.. and obviously failed, so it's okay, right?
I can't sleep without pills or alcohol, or the other thing that isn't even an option.
I've been/am in the process of being severely traumatized and will absolutely never fit into the society of Earth again. I never have to begin with, but soon the notion of it won't even be available. Please, NASA, find life on Mars so I can have a bit of hope of belonging somewhere.
-Let the Music Play-
"There's no way to explain why life is filled with so much pain. But do the flowers ever grow in the places it don't rain?"
"But the unfortunate truth is that, while being different from everyone else can be exciting at first, ultimately it can get a little lonely."
"The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no further."
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August 28th 2012, 02:29 AM
i think im just gonna cave tonight.
From day one I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said, "Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die