Say something you wish you could say to their face.

[Kate*]

You needed to know about that almost a year ago. I was reminded today why I will never tell you, but it will probably never happen so don't worry. You said you think that I'm probably doing okay (since you have no way of knowing) and that she's just nitpicking. I think you're wrong, but you have NO IDEA how badly I want you to be right. I tried to get an appointment on Thursday for a reason, the more I think about it, waiting 3 days wouldn't be that big of a deal. I was hoping I would only have to wait 1 instead of 6, but if I'm already waiting 6, 9 isn't that big of a jump. Oh well

[luckiicloverxx]

I wish you would just come out and say what you feel. All these mixed signals are messing with my head. If you don't like me in that way, just freaking tell me so I can start getting over you and stop feeling like this.

[Floof]

If you don't stop being adorable this instant i'm going to pick you up and hug you to death. YOU HEARD ME YOUNG MAN. >:C

[bitesize]

I would love to talk to you tonight from my bed. I miss you. Gah...

-I wish I hadn't have had to tell you. I wish this didn't happen. I wish I had trusted you. I wish you had been here. I swear that's not why I did it, but I wish you had been. I am so sorry for everything. I hope you still love me. I love you so much. I haven't told you that enough lately because we've been fighting so much, but it's so stupid, it's so stupid in the scheme of things. I just want you back here with me, holding me, telling me about your trip. I hope that can still happen. I really do.

- I am so sorry I did this, and am not minimizing my part in it, but please take me back. Leaving me to live with friends makes my life, and therefore my recovery, worse, not better. I will do what it takes to come back, just let me come back home.

- You're the best friend I could have ever asked for. I am only sorry that I can't be more than a friend to you, or even a better friend to you.

- You have made this whole thing so much more bearable. Thank you for accepting me as I am. I am so grateful to have met you.

[Most Likely]

If I give up, I'll be bitter.
If I continue, I'll be disappointed.

Oh, where to go...

[Gwynbleidd]

Gah your so gorgeous! I love you so much but I shouldnt. It isnt right. Besides you like him instead. I feel like a bumbling idiot around you. I should stop while we are still friends. I cant get you out of my head no matter how hard I try!

[Kate*]

-- I know you're getting beyond frustrated with me. I'd like to say there's a learning curve, but I don't blame you

-- Sorry I didn't recognize you I TOTALLY should've! Thanks for the talk in the hall. It's really nice to know that I'm not the only one that something like this has happened to and that I'm not the only one who noticed it declining. Your advice was BEYOND valuable.

- Help me, I'm scared.

- Thank you for letting me come back home. You have no idea what that means to me. I won't violate your trust again.

- Help me, I'm scared.

- Thank you for letting me come back home. You have no idea what that means to me. I won't violate your trust again.

- I love you. Please don't leave me.

[bitesize]

You know, sometimes, when you haven't wrotten back for days on end, I wonder why I'm still doig this. Is it because of the thigs you said?? Because I was fully prepared to chop all communication the day I left Illinois but you begged me not to, asked me to hold on, told me beautiful things that made me believe but that are sounding less genuine every day...it's so unlike me to be putting up with this,I've never been so patient with anyone. It's frustrating. Is there any point or will I look back and wish I hadn't wasted time on nothing??.

[Azure.]

I wish I had the guts to tell you how amazing you are.

[Kintsukuroi.]

- You're a fucking douche and I seriously can't handle you. Please leave me alone for now. You can turn my mood in seconds. I'm triggered now and all you are doing is telling me what a failure I am. Just shut up please.

[ElsatheDepressionSlayer]

My feelings are out of whack, and I don't know how to love anymore. I don't know what's happening and I'm afraid my feelings for you are fading. I don't know if that's because I was only ever in love with the idea of being in a relationship, or if it's just my personal problem that has to do with my depression/anxiety/grief. I don't feel right about anything in my life, and I don't know how to really care again. Is there something wrong with our relationship or is it just me? (I think it's just me and my current issues, but I'm scared.)

Y'all suck. This is a shitty organization. I never get treated fairly or equally.

Why can't I just move to California? Or back home, because this was never my home. My heart and soul still belongs in the place I was born and raised in.

[Kate*]

-- You are 87 years old, it's time to GROW UP!!!

-- Lucky you, you get to piss her off and then leave the state. She's NEVER going to let this go and now WE'RE the one's that will never stop hearing about it. I don't want to hear it either, but unlike you, I don't get a choice.

--You'd better have those done this week like it says (because otherwise I moved my next appointment with him for nothing and will have to deal with it on my own if I get it late)and NOT force me to open it in front of you (although I bet you will) I scheduled my next appointment with him as close to getting it as I possibly could for a REASON. I know what's better for my mental health than you do and getting this thing on time and getting to open it when, where, and with whom I choose will be the way I stay sane.

-- You said you think I'm doing okay and that she's just nitpicking (even if you only know how I'm doing based on what I tell you). I REALLY hope you're right.

[Spellbound]

I like that I can tell you anything without being afraid and I can be me without being afraid. I knew from day one after meeting you for the first time that you were the real deal. I knew a week after dating you that I loved you. and I know now that I don't want to go another day of my life without you.
I know you feel the same way. Please don't get sick of me.

[Astrophile.]

I'm not going home for Christmas so you'd better find a way to come to us... Even if our house is small, it'll still be a Christmas together.

[Writer]

Tell me what you mean to do with me, or I'm going to disappear from you.

[bitesize]

Oh my God...I hope it doesn't sound horribly selfish that I kind of like to hear you've been thinking about me wanting to talk to you. I didn't mean to worry you! I've been worried that you might forget about us, I go so many days where y0u haven't replied and it's agonising and then to hear from you is just agh...and that snapchat was very cute and did you try to call me? because that app opened on it's own and I know you're thinking about me and maybe you overanalysed the song I put up haha.

Oh man what even is the world.

[Nightblood.]

Do they remind you of me like they remind me of you? I wish I knew your thoughts. I wish you would ask.

[Ennui.]

It's really not that easy. It's easier said than done.

[Ennui.]

PRO TIP FOR ANYONE WHO USES PUBLIC AND/OR SHARED RESTROOMS SUCH AS THOSE IN A DORM:

The pee? It goes IN the toilet, not on the seat. Ladies, if you're going to squat and piss, know how to squat and piss. Or, at least wipe up the seat if you see you peed on it. As the saying goes, "if you sprinkle while you tinkle, please be neat and wipe the seat." Maybe we should go back to preschool and all learn how to pee on the potty correctly. I'm really tired of walking into stalls and seeing piss on the seat. K? K.

[Most Likely]

Goodnight.

[Kate*]

-- If it's because of that, I COMPLETELY get it, but you had ample opportunity to discuss it with me in person and chose not to, kind of unprofessional. The good news is: Even if it's due to my behavior, it's not due to my ability or skills. The bad news: EVERYTHING ELSE

-- Given this, do you still think that?

-- NOW WHAT I'm stuck getting 7 more hours and I've burned that agency. I understand and take responsibility, but that doesn't mean that I'm not SCREWED.

[bitesize]

- I hope I don't develop any inconvenient feelings for you now. I think it'll be okay though. Hah, what a random, sweet morning. It's odd how we've really up to now been more classmates than friends, but that we could loll around hungover in a bed together all morning and be perfectly comfortable and platonic and have the laughs like some of the friendships I have with other men was just so unexpected and so nice, I actually had a great time!!
Although I wonder how many of the class will presume we've hooked up now.........probably all of them, and we're not really in a position to deny it. :/

- I don't know if this is crazy; I don't know if this is getting our hopes up and playing with our feelings for nothing. Is it crazy?? Is it a crazy idea?? And this pesky time difference - if we get to chat tomorrow morning it's going to be SO weird that I'll have just woken up and you'll be on your way from work to bed. Haha.. it'll be different DAYS for us. Weird.
I hate how paranoid I get, it's like my brain is looking for things. When you said 'I need some bitesize time,' I instantly presumed that you've probably been getting some other-girl-time. Which you're perfectly allowed to do, like me, but I just don't want to think about it (and maybe because I haven't even kissed anyone since you I'm more sensitive....??)

[ElsatheDepressionSlayer]

I wouldn't have wanted you to stay out of some percieved obligation or pity......but this was the worst timing in the fucking world. I waited for you all summer and you break up with me 2 weeks after you get back. I lost my cat 2 months ago and you were my only other source of comfort. I know you didn't want to drag things out and I appreciate that, but you just took away the one good thing I had in my life. How do I find comfort when my cat is dead, my girlfriend left, and all but one of my friends live out of town? I know the feelings were fading on both sides, but how could you take away my one source of comfort and leave me with only pain?

[Twinge]

I wish I knew what I needed or wanted from you... oh my god.
Attention, affection, something warm, something hot...
I don't know. I don't fucking know.

[Jovial.]

-I can't get what you said out of my head. Its been months since we talked and I still think about you. Why? What is it that I can't let go. "You aren't the person I thought you were" I'm not sure what I did to warrant that, but obviously something. I lost. I'm confused. I'm a mom, and a human, and a person. If I made a mistake, then I'm truly sorry. Okay?


- I let you down, I know I did. I need you though. I need our friendship. I miss you. I miss hearing you voice everyday for hours on end, and never running out of things to talk about. I fucked up, but I still need you. How do I fix it? C. You are my best friend.

[Kate*]

-- You're telling me that I should just give up and quit, he's telling me that it will work out and not to panic, they're telling me not to let you get to me, he's on sabbatical, I can't see him until Monday and that session was moved UP 3 days, she's not answering emails, texts, or phone calls, and I still have to get through 2 sessions tomorrow Someone needs to make up their minds. I've heard the horror stories and I don't want to become one even though I probably already am. I know I'm a unique case, but if it's going to end, just end it.

[bitesize]

Ugh... I can't help feeling disappointed... I got up early to talk to you and now you're nowhere to be found. Maybe you're waiting for me to get in touch...but if you were looking forward to it as much as I was surely you'd have chcked facebook by now, I don't know why tht text didn't send. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up... but at least I'm awake, I guess??........

[Kate*]

-- I know I deserve to have it end over this, I know there's no excuse for what happened, I know you're at the end of your rope, but I am begging for just one more chance. I'm already seeing him to help with this, please don't give up on me yet. I'll do ANYTHING you ask me to, other than leave permanently, I just can't bring myself to do that.

[Writer]

Already I miss you again, but I'm not going to tell you, because I know you probably wouldn't care.

Yeah. Here's to me, sitting in my corner, reading my books for the rest of eternity. *raises grape juice in wine glass* Cheers, Universe! Thanks for the forever-alone-ness. I really appreciate it.

/sarcasm

-_-

[Most Likely]

Well, if you could make the schedule a bit more detailed, I'd be pretty happy.

[Rivière]

I know you mean well, but barging into my room just to tell me you bought some food is kind of irritating. It's not like I live in my room 24/7, you could have waited until I come down and tell me then, but no, you wait until I'm actually doing something and then assume I'm hungry. If I was hungry I'd have gone and had something to eat, which I'm not, and so didn't. Please don't make me feel like I have to bolt my door just to stop you barging in.

[Kate*]

I'm going to tell you the truth of what happened, I don't think it warrants dismissal, but it's the only explanation I have so I really hope it's good enough.

[bitesize]

-Not sure where it came from, but I had a pretty fun dream about you last night...

-I miss you, Ohio boy.

[luckiicloverxx]

Is this all really true?