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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
January 20th 2011, 04:40 PM
I think I'm starting to have serious feelings for you.
I'm crossing boundaries. Boundaries I put in place.
I know you could care less about me. I don't even
think you like me. Yet you pretend that you do. Why?
Why are you in such a hurry to hurt me. Why am I in
such a hurry to except the pain. I feel like I becoming addicted
to the pain. And soon that's all that we will be. The one
who gives pain and the one who receives it. Is that how you
really want things to be? Tell me I need to know.
Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
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January 21st 2011, 05:06 AM
I'm scared to be alone this weekend that is why Im coming home.
Part of why I don't try is because I'm scared of trying and failing.
Sometimes you are too much for me but I can't bring myself to leave and live the way I use to.
You deserve better and I'm worried Ill never be the person I want to be for you. This issue w. Travis and Shawn keeps getting between us. I'm worried we won't be able to get past it. You keep saying its not a big deal but it keeps coming up and I know it bothers you. I hate being this person. How long can we be this far apart? I'm not even sure its just physical distance...=/
Now that you are single again I think things will be even more awkward between us. Why couldn't you just have been a total dick to me when I asked what happened with us? For whatever reason I can't hate you and as much as I want to think you acted like a dick I can't accept that that's the person you are. I feel like a charity case and I'll always wonder if he hadn't messaged you if you'd have messaged me etc.
I wish we had started off as friends first.
I've been hurting myself. You know I've hurt myself before but you don't know about this weekend. You're my best friend but I can't tell you this. I'm sorry I'm so fake happy but Im glad you don't see the me I've been lately. It scares me to see the person Im becoming and I can't let you see.
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January 21st 2011, 07:45 AM
I wish you felt the same. But you never will.. I'll just stand back here hurting watching your life play out and stand in and give a helping hand when your reaching for one.
I love you.. With all my heart.
I just wish you could see how much pain i feel
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January 21st 2011, 05:45 PM
- I love how you are just going to wak out because that's easier for you. I mean, honestly? You've been selfish from the start. You and him fit nicely together. Actually, that's horrible to say. He is far far far worse. This person will die one day. And I will laugh. So hard. He is a monster. No saint by any means, despite what he tries to tell everyone.
-You will never, ever, ever know the slight feelings I have for you that won't leave.
-You walk all over me too. But I am closest to you! What kind of fucking logic is that? I mean, really? You are rude. I hate, hate, hate to be called stupid. Worst thing to call me. And you do, and I stick around. I am so sick of being underestimate me. I swear to God. You don't realize what I am capable of, yet you know the nature of it.
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January 23rd 2011, 09:26 AM
I'm scared, I don't know how else to put it. I'm scared of not being strong enough. I'm scared of losing you. I'm scared of what we both want. I'm scared of how bad I want to stop existing. I'm scared of how bad I want to run and never stop until everything and everyone is left behind. I'm scared of loving you. I'm scared of hurting you. I'm scared that I'm the reason for everything that's been happening.
I'm starting to wonder if what I think is going on actually is....
Last edited by Leo; January 23rd 2011 at 10:01 AM.
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January 23rd 2011, 01:46 PM
Why did you have to mess up again..?
I wish I could get my old feelings back! I'm trying hard, but the visions...the memories, they stop me. But...why..
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January 25th 2011, 04:27 AM
-My heart is thumping. This is ridiculous. I have heard a million different opinions. She knew about me, and was right. Is she right about you to? If she is.. I want to know. I wish you weren't blind for the hints being thrown at you.
-Sweetie, if that was about me, you haven't done anything wrong. Sometimes I just need to face stuff alone sometimes. It's nothing that you did, promise. I am just pulling away. I love you.
-Ech. Never mind. Fail. Consider it done. .
Last edited by Just Peachy.; January 25th 2011 at 04:22 PM.
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January 25th 2011, 05:58 PM
I'm kind of annoyed at you for taking that book...we were there first, and eleven euro is honestly a bit of a lot for me right now. Especially because you just took it, you didn't even think of offering it to us. I'm disappointed...I thought you were nice. :/
Honey, you're familiar, like my mirror, years ago
.....
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door
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January 26th 2011, 01:51 AM
Can you not look at me and see the pain I'm in? Can you not see the damage you have caused me? You have caused me to hurt myself. To use SH to release all the pain and hurt you have brought upon me.
Can you not hear me? Do you not understand me when I try and tell you what you are doing to me? Obviously not. Cause you are still doing it. You won't hear me whn I tell you the hurt the stress the pressure you cause me. And when I tell you I want to go back into therapy you blow me off.
Can you not realize where you're leading me? Do you not understand
You are only drawing me farther away? You can't let me grow up. You can't let go. You think you have tight restrains on me but you really don't. You are only drawing me farther away and causing me to move out sooner than planned.
The words you say hurt. They leave permanent scars. I should be able to go to my mom and talk to her. tell her everything. Trust her. Love her. Want to be around her. But unfortunately I have no idea what that feels like. What it's like to have a mom like that. Fortunatately I have adult figures in my life that I can have relationships like that with. And I'm lucky for that.
I amscared to come talk to you. You're judging. Mean. Hurtful. Non understanding. Cruel. And just not the person I can talk to. When I do have to though trust me. I have anxiety attacks and pain and panic rushing through my body like crazy. It's not healthy I know that. But I can't help it.
This is what your done to me. And this is why I can't live with you anymore. If I do, I'm gonna relapse. And it's not going to be pretty.
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January 26th 2011, 02:02 AM
-Darling, i'm so afraid to love you, even though you tell me you love me it's so hard for me to trust,i want to so bad but i'm scared, it's only been 3 months and i feel so close to you, i'm afraid you'll hurt me and i can't stand that again, plus you are going to college in another state next year andd i'll be stuck here.
-i love you but i hate what you do to me, i'm sick of you replacing the emotional with food,it fixes nothing, i forget which one of us is the parent and who's the teen?i'vve suffered so much more than you will ever know.your the reason i can't tell people my secrets especially you.
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I've tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
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January 26th 2011, 02:50 AM
1: I know I had a horrible attitude when I first met you, I was all defensive and rude and just a terrible person - but I'm so thankful that you ignored that and spoke to me nonetheless. Everything you've said, shows me that you are not average - and that I highly underestimated you. I know I can't expect you to offer much in the way of practical advice, but I wish we can stay in touch in the long term. I want to have you as a friend, as I feel that your presence in my life is significant. And I still have the dream of convincing you, one day, that you have underestimated me just as much.
2: You were absolutely right, every encounter is significant. Except I definitely didn't care much for it at the time. I think I cared for very little at that time. I was far from ready. But I think I can be now. I'm not sure if I'll be able to speak to you again, not sure if you are still there now, or if you still remember me - but I'll try, just because I want to tell you this, for some reason that is beyond me. But I feel slightly (very) embarrassed for who I was when we first met. Yes, definitely wasn't ready then.
"If limitations exist, it is because we have erased the possibility of potential."
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January 26th 2011, 06:47 PM
Stop lecturing me about school and grades. You don't think I know how much I'm disappointing you? You have no idea what is going on with me and though I'd like to keep it that way you're driving me crazy. Last night I took more advil in a single dose then youre suppose to take over the course of a day. I knew it wouldnt kill me I just wanted to ya...
I'm scared. I want to come home and say screw school but Im scared of what people will think and say.
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January 27th 2011, 05:33 AM
James: Fuck off. Fuck you. Why the fuck did you come back into my life? I've been doing much better, then you try to fuck me over and make me feel like a sack of shit. I'm not going to let you drag me back down to the point I used to be at. You will not have the power to make me cut myself. So either be my friend, or go away. I don't need your drama.
Dare to be Different, to be Weird, to be a Freak. Overall, Dare to be yourself. Stamp Out Prejudice Hatred and Intolerance Everywhere
The Sophie Lancaster Foundation
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January 27th 2011, 02:32 PM
Dirtbag,
Dont you look at me in class from across the room. Dont you smile at me when you walk by with your cigarette pressed between your lips. Dont you hold the door for me when Im walking behind you trying to hide my face. Dont you talk to me during that awkward silence in the hallway. Ill say something; Ill make you realize what you did to her was fucked up. If I could walk up to you, choke you against the wall, and punch you in the face.. Oh I would.
Dear you,
How the fuck could you leave me like this? How else do I tell you, I need you. Im practically spelling it out for you. Ive been drunk every night for the past five days so I dont cry myself to sleep thinking about what youve done to me. This whole time you promised to help and promised to make things better. And now you fucking leave me? Rightttt, thats better. Thats what I need. When things get hard you leave. How is that being my best friend? Youre supposed to help me stop my bad habits. But no, now Im doing them because of you. Really, thank you so fuckin much. That really shows me how much you "love me."
"It's all about where your mind's at" -Kelly Slater
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January 28th 2011, 11:26 PM
You seriously think you are going to get away with treating me this way. Well you're not. I met with a counselor today. Told her about what's been happening. All that's been going on. Wanting to SH. I'm gonna move out. And you're not gonna stop me.
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January 29th 2011, 12:42 AM
I am strong. I am a survivor. You no longer own me. I hope you are nervous. I hope you are worried. I hope you are scared. You should be, because I am strong, I am a survivor and I am telling what you did to me!
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January 29th 2011, 12:58 AM
All I ever wanted was you, and you should have known that.
How could I have ever loved anyone else?
If only we could speak again,
I wish you never called.
I wish you never lied.
I wish you never left.
And here you are living, despite it all. Lead Moderator | Disputes Committee | HelpLINK Mentor
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January 29th 2011, 04:20 AM
Dear Jordan, I like you, do you like me? Just tell me!!
Dear Mallory & Domonique, Sometimes I feel like you guys aren't even my friends...
Dear Leah, Your childish...GROW THE F**K UP ALREADY!!!
Dear Nana, I want you back and I always will why didn't you tell me?
Dear Chloe, Your mom is a werid freak & I see why you want to run away, but please don't!
Dear Me, I wish I was a better person...
Allow yourself to develop in all aspects of life- cut out from toxic people and realize it's for the best. Love yourself endlessly, and even if you don't love yourself right now, fake it until you do.
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January 29th 2011, 09:02 AM
Look I know he isn't my boyfriend any more but we were together for 3 and a half years. We have been broken up for 2 months. It is still tough on both of us so just leave him alone for a bit. Stop throwing yourself all over him...your making yourself look desperate.
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January 30th 2011, 05:26 AM
I'm sorry for telling lies about you. I should have confronted you sooner. Wish it hadn't gotten so out of hand. Good luck in the future. I really will miss you.
To you, everything's funny. - ♥ -
I'd give all I have, honey. - If you could stay like that.
Stay this little. - ☂ - I won't let nobody hurt you.
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January 30th 2011, 05:31 AM
I'm addicted to you. This is not some fucking love song. I'm going through with drawel and i'd hurt myself over and over again so long as I get my fix because even though all you give me is pain, I love it, I love you I need it...I'm addicted to your pain, you've been fucking with my head this whole time you broke me, your lies are cheap and i believed everyone of them i fucking hate you but im in love with you for it im addicted to your abused...but your gone just like before walk away like it didn't even hurt. like it didn't even matter. it was real for me but im beginning to think it was a game for you. a game your very good at it's fucking twisted how ONE man can make a woman crumble to her knees months after being gone. not even having to say anything. I'm a wreck and you fucking broke me
The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows.
It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward.