Triggering: Rae's poems.

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#1:
"What you see"
You look at me
And see
A teenage girl
You look at me
And see
A happy girl
But that’s not me
I am a teenage boy
I look at me and see
A okay boy
I look at me and see
someone nobody else sees
-Rae Parker-

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This is definitely relatable for a lot of people.

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Anxiety
I am not alone
But I fear I am lonely
I am not sad
But I seem to cry
I seem to shake
I cannot focus.
Don’t leave me alone
But I’m breaking at the seams
You can’t see
But these are the thoughts of somebody
With Anxiety.
~Rae Parker~

Depression
I don’t have interests
But I love to do things
I want to do things
I seem to cry, though there is no reason
I can’t sleep at night or I sleep too much
There is no in between
I move too slowly
And people get irritated.
These are the actions of someone with
Depression.
~Rae Parker~

PTSD
I relive the same experiences
In my mind
I am stuck in the past
But I want to see the future
I still feel the situations
More than I did that day
I feel the
Anxiety
Of reliving everything in my mind
Yet nobody knows I can’t move forward
I laugh and smile
Yet I’m breaking too
My imagination might be the best part of me
But it’s also the worst
It makes me relive the worst parts of my life.
Thats the experience of
PTSD.
~Rae Parker~

[Arabesque- golfing girl.]

Thank you for this.

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Best friends turned to strangers


You want to know what hurts?
When you see the same person
You know their birthday
Their age
Their favorite color
Yet you don’t even say hi
You know them
More than you know
yourself
You hung out every
single day
But you haven’t talked in
weeks
You want to know what hurts?
When your best friend turns into a
Stranger.
~Rae Parker~

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TW:// SA

First time reporting ~ Rae Parker

This will be the strongest thing
You’ve ever done
This will be the hardest part
Of what he did
To you
This will be the make-or-break
Of your justice
This will be what brings the
Trauma on
The flashbacks
The panic attacks
It all starts
Now.
It all starts with the
First
Time
Report





We teach women, not men ~ Rae Parker

We tell our girls
Get home before its dark
Its unsafe
When we should tell our boys
Make it safe for girls
To be able to stay out
Like you can
We tell our girls
It’s shameful to be raped
When we should tell our boys
It’s shameful to rape
We teach our girls
To hide her shoulders
And her stomach
And her legs
Because it’s unsafe
When we should teach our boys
To keep it in his pants
To make it safe





I will be silent when… ~ Rae Parker

I will be silent when
We can say the words
Sexual assault
And not be screamed at
I will be silent when
We can sit and cry
Without being
Judged
Or Shamed
I will be silent when
The girls who get
Raped
Aren’t told they’re in the
Wrong
I will be silent when
The girls who get
Sexually assaulted
Aren’t asked
What were you wearing?
Were you drinking?
I will be silent when
The world is finally fair…

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TW:// SA

Remember ~ Rae Parker


I remember
What I was wearing
The day I told my family
I remember
The feeling of
Your hand
On my butt
While I was sanding the wood
I remember
Your heavy breaths in my ear
Though nobody saw
I remember
The feeling of you
Pushing your privates
Toward my butt
Through our clothes
For a quick moment
As you passed behind me
I remember
Forgetting details to give
To the officer
I remember
Crying for hours and hours
Not knowing why
Someone I was supposed to
Trust
Would break me down
Til I was dust
I remember
When I couldn’t get
Two words
Out of my little mouth
Without bursting into
Tears
I remember
After 2 years
Every
Detail
Now

[Mindfulness.]

These are really good poems.