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Forum: Depression and Suicide December 3rd 2020, 11:19 PM
Replies: 2
Views: 3,429
Posted By Tigereyes
I can't do it anymore

I can't do it anymore. It's been too much to handle too long. Too many crises per day, every day. No, I don't have people to reach out to who are able to help me. Please don't say it'll get better...
Forum: Why Me? December 3rd 2020, 11:12 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

EDITED No one's going to stop me. It's best for everyone if I leave anyway. A few people will be hurt, but they'll be able to survive without me now. I don't want to go, but I just can't handle the...
Forum: Why Me? December 3rd 2020, 07:52 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I need to die before this weekend.
Forum: Why Me? December 3rd 2020, 07:30 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Don't know that I can wait to kill myself. My life ends in the very near future. I can't do it.
Forum: Why Me? December 1st 2020, 11:44 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

No one cares. No one understands. It's not that fucking simple! I'm tired of explaining over and over. I'm here alone to suffer. I'm ready to go.
Forum: Why Me? December 1st 2020, 10:53 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Finally made it to the last month
Forum: Why Me? November 30th 2020, 11:26 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Have been severely suicidal for half a year and almost no one said happy birthday to me. Remind me again why I should force myself to stay alive?
Forum: Games and Things November 30th 2020, 10:42 PM
Replies: 10,419
Views: 403,578
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

You made a mistake leaving tonight..
Forum: Why Me? November 30th 2020, 10:41 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It still keeps getting fucking worse..... I think it's time for a final countdown 'til I can go.
Forum: Why Me? November 25th 2020, 11:33 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Only reason I'm not killing myself right now is because I'm not physically alone at the moment.
Forum: Why Me? November 25th 2020, 10:07 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

It's my birthday in a few days. Maybe I'll do something for myself for once and end this suffering for good. Happy birthday to me; I'm going to kill myself.
Forum: Why Me? November 25th 2020, 09:45 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I hope tomorrow never comes. I'm almost at the point where 6 months ago, I said that if life was still that bad, I am allowed to finally kill myself. I've had a solid plan for months. Years? Over 2...
Forum: Why Me? November 24th 2020, 03:47 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Extra bad ptsd day=extra suicidal
Forum: Why Me? November 21st 2020, 12:13 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

If I get covid, at least I'll have a good enough reason to kill myself
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 09:02 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I may not survive tonight
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 08:33 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Suicide is the only way to make it stop. Everyone needs me to make it stop so I stop hurting them by being in more pain than they can handle. Well what about me?
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 07:42 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It would be best for everyone if I was dead.
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 06:41 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I WISH I WAS FUCKING DEAD. I can feel the flashbacks coming back harder. So yeah, I don't know if I'll survive this.
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 10:22 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't function, but I have to for some reason
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 01:41 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

No, I won't feel better tomorrow just because another night passes. Why do people assume that? I won't fucking feel better til shit gets better.
Forum: Why Me? November 20th 2020, 01:35 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I hope tomorrow never comes.
Forum: Depression and Suicide November 19th 2020, 07:27 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,774
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Suicidal about COVID-19?

Thanks for taking the time to respond. I was already forced to quit my job months ago. I was an employee, so I didn't get any protection like the students. The university said they didn't care if I...
Forum: Why Me? November 19th 2020, 11:35 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

What's today's trauma going to be? See this is why I need to kill myself as soon as possible.
Forum: Why Me? November 19th 2020, 11:32 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Oh yeah and a friend relapsed and overdosed the other day.
Forum: Why Me? November 19th 2020, 11:28 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Family member is dying. Or dead by now... well still gotta work full time. With all the other fucking shit.
Forum: Why Me? November 18th 2020, 12:09 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why bother asking for help when people just "lol just be happy and do self care!" At my problems that are way too severe for that shit to make a dent in. I know cause I've been fucking trying that...
Forum: Why Me? November 17th 2020, 05:16 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Dissociating hard and no one cares. I need to drive, so I have no choice but to push through when I probably shouldn't. There's no one here. All alone. At least dissociation is better than...
Forum: Why Me? November 17th 2020, 02:05 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

The flashbacks make me extremely suicidal in the past time, and there's no way to know what's real and what's not. There's no advice for me because the first step is recognizing it's a flashback, and...
Forum: Why Me? November 16th 2020, 12:41 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It's honestly just a matter of time before I end it. Who's going to stop me? No one.
Forum: Why Me? November 15th 2020, 01:32 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm beyond help. No one can handle me.
Forum: Why Me? November 14th 2020, 03:46 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't go on. There's no one who can or will help. And with the flashbacks and dissociation so bad and so frequent, I can't promise I won't kill myself sooner than planned.
Forum: Why Me? November 14th 2020, 03:37 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

There's no help for me.
Forum: Why Me? November 12th 2020, 12:38 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I need to fucking kill myself. If it's still not better by mid-December, I'm fucking leaving. Same date I set like 5 months ago. Haven't fucking changed my mind because shit just keeps fucking...
Forum: Why Me? November 12th 2020, 09:47 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Vivid PSTD nightmares..
Forum: Why Me? November 11th 2020, 05:52 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm really not okay. At all.
Forum: Why Me? November 11th 2020, 11:26 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

New extremely severe PTSD does not mix with chronic illness, past PTSD, grief, and full time work. Oh well, not a damn thing I can do about any of it.
Forum: Why Me? November 5th 2020, 01:01 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'M FUCKING LEAVING THIS FUCKING HELLHOLE. THERE'S NO SUPPORT FOR ME, NO LOVE, NOTHING. IT'S BEST FOR EVERYONE IF I WERE DEAD. IT KEEPS GETTING FUCKING WORSE EVERY FUCKING DAY AND NO ONE GIVES A...
Forum: Why Me? November 5th 2020, 11:57 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Who would even want to stay alive with it being this bad?
Forum: Why Me? November 4th 2020, 07:36 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

If I get covid, I WILL kill myself. Better than surviving to be more disabled or dying a slow painful death alone in a hospital. My parents are cool with that I guess.
Forum: Why Me? November 4th 2020, 06:54 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

After this election ends, I don't need to stay alive. I wish I was dead. Most people wish I was dead.
Forum: Why Me? November 4th 2020, 03:01 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm living like I'm about to die because I actually might be.
Forum: Why Me? November 3rd 2020, 09:49 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I am absolutely terrified about the election. And I should be.
Forum: Depression and Suicide November 2nd 2020, 11:22 AM
Replies: 8
Views: 10,491
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I need to kill myself

I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt here and assume this has good intentions. But if someone says they have been abused, traumatized, have no support, no resources, are losing basic human...
Forum: Why Me? November 2nd 2020, 11:10 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I was always the fuck-up kid
Forum: Why Me? October 30th 2020, 12:48 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

JUST FUCKING END MY STUPID FUCKING LIFE. FUCK I DON'T EVEN CARE IF I DIE A SLOW PAINFUL COVID DEATH ANYMORE. JUST END MY LIFE HOWEVER. I DON'T CARE.
Forum: Why Me? October 29th 2020, 11:09 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wonder if I can pay someone to kill me and make it look like an accident.
Forum: Why Me? October 28th 2020, 11:28 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Dear nobody,
Being alive sucks. I need to change that. Sorry I can't do anything right or good enough. It's best for everyone if I go. We all know it.
Forum: Why Me? October 27th 2020, 01:07 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Goodbye to my human rights and to those of everyone close to me. We don't matter apparently. But I'm supposed to stay alive?
Forum: Why Me? October 26th 2020, 11:21 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'll never escape this debt or abuse. So why bother trying anymore. More debt, more abuse, more trauma and ptsd. that's what I get for trying to escape. Well fuck that. I quit. I'm done with this...
Forum: Depression and Suicide October 24th 2020, 06:57 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 10,491
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I need to kill myself

My 2 friends can't handle all my problems on top of their own. My family yells at me and puts me down, doesn't believe my chronic illness is disabling, encourages me to work myself into the hospital,...
Forum: Why Me? October 23rd 2020, 11:33 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I was dead. I will never be fully accepted for who I am. Everyone wants me dead.
Forum: Why Me? October 23rd 2020, 10:33 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My life is hell and always will be, this country is hell and getting worse, everyone wants to take away my rights and wants me dead. We let the poor suffer and die on the streets, judging and...
Forum: Why Me? October 22nd 2020, 12:03 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Every day I wake up, my desire to end my life becomes stronger.
Forum: Depression and Suicide October 22nd 2020, 10:50 AM
Replies: 8
Views: 10,491
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I need to kill myself

I've already talked to many people for the past over a decade. Most eventually left me for being too negative. I have no way to meet anyone else and can't connect with anyone, and often talking makes...
Forum: Why Me? October 21st 2020, 09:57 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Nearly all of entire family and extended family is about to reject me for being "gay" because I'm aro ace and want to be roommates again with my partner/best friend. So glad I can turn to queer safe...
Forum: Why Me? October 18th 2020, 05:05 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I am actually at the end of my rope. Was just told by the one person I trust to push myself through the pain until it kills me or I kill myself. Because it's not bad enough to die. Right before that,...
Forum: Why Me? October 5th 2020, 12:20 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Please help.. please someone... anyone. Just listen. Just.. anything. Is there anyone out there who cares?

I hope tomorrow never comes.
Forum: Why Me? October 4th 2020, 11:51 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Too much pain to tolerate much food.. :/ again. Last time it was physical. Couldn't eat much for weeks. But physical wounds often heal, and those did eventually. Emotional wounds sometimes never...
Forum: Why Me? October 4th 2020, 09:36 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm in too much pain to function. For days. If I stop taking care of myself, maybe I'll get lucky and pass on.
Forum: Why Me? October 4th 2020, 03:27 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Only thing I can do to help myself is finalize my suicide plan.
Forum: Current Events and Debates October 4th 2020, 02:49 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My state has fully reopened, with large gatherings just limited in attendence. We keep getting ~1500 new confirmed cases per day, tests are being lost and have always been limited. Close to 220,000...
Forum: Games and Things October 3rd 2020, 09:08 PM
Replies: 10,419
Views: 403,578
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

Would you still love me if I was me?
Forum: Why Me? October 3rd 2020, 07:43 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I've never felt so broken and alone. My parents will hate me very soon. Because of who I am... I'm sorry for being me.
Forum: Why Me? October 3rd 2020, 01:19 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

After I vote against Trump, I'm probably enacting my plan. Goodbye, I'm sorry. It is best for everyone if I go. There's no hope, no help, no relief. Only pain and suffering.
Forum: Why Me? October 2nd 2020, 12:22 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My parents say the love me... but they don't act like it. They only love me conditionally. The love the idea they have of me. Not who I really am....
Forum: Why Me? October 1st 2020, 08:05 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I don't have enough reasons to stay alive much longer. Why should I?
Forum: Depression and Suicide September 30th 2020, 02:37 PM
Replies: 8
Views: 10,491
Posted By Tigereyes
I need to kill myself

That's it. I could give you a trilogy of my life but there's no point anymore. I've delayed killing myself for years to avoid hurting people and incase it gets better.

Well it hasn't and it never...
Forum: Why Me? September 29th 2020, 10:36 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

According to almost everyone, I'm supposed to just suffer. Well fuck that. I deserve better. And if the only way to give myself better is through death's release, then I'll just have to follow the...
Forum: Why Me? September 29th 2020, 09:30 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fuck everything. If I sleep at my apartment, I have to leave all doors and windows open because it's so damn hot (outside too, but slightly less overnight) and maintanence won't fix ac. It's summer...
Forum: Why Me? September 28th 2020, 04:05 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I was dead. Most people don't care if I die. Want evidence? No one will wear a mask or social distance to protect me--someone they KNOW is immunocompromised. I'd just rather end my life...
Forum: Drugs, Alcohol and Addiction September 24th 2020, 03:57 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 10,263
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not drinking is miserable

I second this. Withdrawal from alcohol and/or benzo dependency without medical supervision is very dangerous. These ones could actually kill you.
Forum: Why Me? September 24th 2020, 03:50 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Life is shit. It won't get better. I don't care if it will. The suffering of now and the past however many years is too much to hold on for a "maybe one day it'll get better." When? When I'm...
Forum: Current Events and Debates September 22nd 2020, 10:09 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Almost 200,000 confirmed cases in my state. We "leveled out" at 1200-1500 new confirmed cases per day, every day. No one cares. "The elderly and disabled can die." Everyone still acts like there is...
Forum: Why Me? September 11th 2020, 08:29 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I really wish I was dead. I wish I had killed myself 5 years ago.
Forum: Current Events and Debates September 11th 2020, 08:28 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 180,000 confirmed positive cases in my state. Limited testing the whole time.
Forum: Why Me? August 31st 2020, 02:33 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I really wish I was dead. There is no relief of any kind for me in this world.
Forum: Why Me? August 30th 2020, 11:52 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Pain level 9-10 is just going to be ignored for weeks
Forum: Why Me? August 27th 2020, 02:46 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm terrified.
Forum: Why Me? August 26th 2020, 07:13 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

WHY IS EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY SO MUCH FUCKING WORSE THAN THE PREVIOUS DAY????? I can't fucking take any more of this. The more of this shit that goes so fucking wrong, the less reason there is to...
Forum: Why Me? August 25th 2020, 10:00 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

So much pain.. fatigue level 9, physical pain level 7-8, emotional pain level 10, other symptoms level 5. Sometimes I really hate having a body. There is no relief.

Just gotta keep pushing...
Forum: Why Me? August 24th 2020, 02:54 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

JUST FUCKING KILL ME!!!!!!!!!
Forum: Why Me? August 24th 2020, 10:33 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Please just end this pain

More and more and more symptoms with no treatment and life crises. Just fucking kill me already! I can't fucking push through all this bullshit anymore. If I had lower...
Forum: Why Me? August 23rd 2020, 12:27 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Pain getting worse. Eating hurts too much. I'm apparently supposed to just fucking suffer with no treatment. And search for a job full time during this. It's more important than ever to get a job...
Forum: Why Me? August 22nd 2020, 08:18 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

This hurts so bad. I can't eat. It hurts too much. I can't care for myself and don't have an able person to care for me. Can't even get appointment til next week. Pain constantly getting worse.
Forum: Why Me? August 22nd 2020, 10:45 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

So glad that I will likely get zero pain treatment from an urgent surgery that I can't afford. Just great. So I will want to die even more.

I can't eat. I can't get an appointment. Will I just die...
Forum: Why Me? August 21st 2020, 02:25 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't fucking take this anymore.
Forum: Why Me? August 21st 2020, 09:20 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My teeth hurt
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 20th 2020, 07:36 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

Money would at least fix 90% of my problems, and money would buy me therapy for the other 10% of my problems. I don't have money for resources. My income the first half of this year was slightly too...
Forum: Why Me? August 19th 2020, 11:39 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Today looks like a good day to end it for good.
Forum: Why Me? August 19th 2020, 09:57 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Well it turns out I did fail the phone interview. No surprise. I'll continue my multi-day breakdown over this same interview. I know I'll never do better. I can't sell myself as the best. Because I'm...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 18th 2020, 12:27 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

I am so fucking done with life. There is no hope at all. No reason to suffer any longer. One person wants me. But they don't need me. So I have no reason to make myself stay. I stand no chance. At...
Forum: Why Me? August 18th 2020, 09:42 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Today will be another bad day.
Forum: Games and Things August 17th 2020, 08:19 PM
Replies: 10,419
Views: 403,578
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

Please help..
Forum: Why Me? August 17th 2020, 03:32 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Phone anxiety makes me sound like such a fucking idiot during phone interviews AND ruins my chances of getting a job offer. I want to give up.

This is proof it will never get better.

Dear Void,...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 16th 2020, 03:02 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

I think it's time to go. I'm sorry.

Literally the only employer who would hire me last year was completely okay with me dying to barely cover bare essentials working constant overtime. Why would...
Forum: Why Me? August 16th 2020, 03:00 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I just want everything to end.

I should've just gone back to work to die.

I have the wrong personality for job hunting. I am not the best candidate. Just another applicant. But not energetic...
Forum: Why Me? August 15th 2020, 10:52 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Migraine still. For weeks. No treatment.
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 15th 2020, 10:46 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

The university campus where I refused to return to work due to being at high risk now has several different clusers that we know of. They admit they don't even communicate positive cases unless there...
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 13th 2020, 10:49 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Record-breaking deaths most days in my state. Lowest testing since like March/April. College students have gone back to campuses to have huge parties, and the majority of dorms are filled. Workers...
Forum: Why Me? August 12th 2020, 12:49 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I am too sick to function. At all. My body won't. Sitting is exhausting.

I don't want to hold on anymore. Why should I?
I can't do it. I don't want to do it. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm not good...
Forum: Why Me? August 12th 2020, 10:48 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Wish I could afford to see primary care provider and testing to fix this fatigue. If they'd even listen.
Forum: Why Me? August 12th 2020, 09:53 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I am sure I'm the least desireable candidate because I am introverted, traumatized, depressed, and chronically ill with severe fatigue. Or I'm feeling better and too extroverted for certain...
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 12th 2020, 09:32 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

We cut WAY back on testing (about 1/3 the number of tests previously), so our cases are going up much slower
Forum: Why Me? August 11th 2020, 08:43 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My dream job is anything that doesn't go against my morals and pay at least about $40k (so I can pay student loans too)... Such high goals apparently. I regret college so much.
Forum: Why Me? August 11th 2020, 09:19 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I need a miracle..
Forum: Why Me? August 10th 2020, 01:39 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Is it normal to randomly fall/collapse on the floor all the time due to fatigue and muscle weakness? Or is it depression?

My brain feels like it's literally splitting open. Oh well, keep working.
Forum: Why Me? August 10th 2020, 12:58 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can barely function. Better stop being disabled and get a damn job.
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 9th 2020, 03:49 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Only 1450 new confirmed cases in my state in the past 24hr! Whoooo we're doing so amazing... ~136,000 total that we recorded.
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 9th 2020, 01:31 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

Apparently I now randomly owe Student Loans an extra $2,500 in 3 weeks even though I shouldn't, AND it's supposed to be on pause til Sept 30, not Sept 2! I don't have that.
Forum: Why Me? August 9th 2020, 01:08 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Just found out I owe $2500 more on Sept 2nd for some fucked up reason, even though I'm NOT supposed to because of the CARES act shit. Like it's being added to my Principal somehow. It shouldn't! I...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 9th 2020, 11:09 AM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

A crisis line will just commit me to a hospital I can't afford, swamping me in tens of thousands of dollars MORE debt from my existing $30k of debt. And expose me, a high risk person, to covid....
Forum: Why Me? August 9th 2020, 11:01 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Trump's new student loan plan sounds okay at first. Then I looked into it further. If it passes, I cannot take a low pay job to get by for a while because I will have to pay back an even higher...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 7th 2020, 02:36 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

I need to end it. Shit keeps going more wrong, and there's no way out. This is too much pain. It's not worth fighting so hard with so little energy to fight for a life that is irredeemably...
Forum: Why Me? August 7th 2020, 09:23 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Still in bed. Can already tell today is no better.

For days, it has felt like my brain is going to explode. It's so painful that today, I hope it does just explode. Then I could get relief from...
Forum: Why Me? August 6th 2020, 01:40 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm too fucking sick to even stay alive! I can't function. I don't have money to pay someone to help. I'm not sick enough for disability. I can't care for my basic needs. I can't even job search...
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 6th 2020, 09:51 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

We keep extending Phase 2. Cases keep going up. "Slower" because of reduced testing, but still 1500-2000 new confirmed positive tests per day, every day. Positive rate went down for a few days, but...
Forum: Why Me? August 6th 2020, 09:45 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Somehow I doubt I'm good enough for the lowest of low jobs in my field. Even though I'm more than qualified. I'm worthless and hopeless. I don't believe in myself. I'm not positive and outgoing. I'm...
Forum: Current Events and Debates August 5th 2020, 02:55 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Almost 130,000 confirmed cases in my state. We've drastically reduced testing. We may full reopen this week.
Forum: Why Me? August 4th 2020, 03:44 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

When all your socks have holes on the bottoms and you still can't afford new socks and won't be able to for the forseeable future (if there is a future).

So very chronically ill with insufficient...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 2nd 2020, 01:59 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

Free support groups have harmed me so much. Because they don't understand. I wouldn't be depressed right now if life was okay and I had sufficient income because I've done all the work for...
Forum: Why Me? August 1st 2020, 11:58 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I wish I had killed myself last August.

I need to die.
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 1st 2020, 11:55 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

TW: food restrictions

My work team was very small, and I don't get along with the only coworker who wasn't a supervisor-type. So not really. Talking won't help anyway. It doesn't pay bills. It's...
Forum: Depression and Suicide August 1st 2020, 10:09 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

I got denied unemployment, so my life is ruined more forever. I can't hold on for nothing, no hope. There is no other way out.
Forum: Why Me? August 1st 2020, 10:08 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Well I stayed alive and they denied me, So I guess it IS time to die. There is no hope left.
Forum: Games and Things August 1st 2020, 01:31 AM
Replies: 10,419
Views: 403,578
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face.

Sorry for talking too much, even though it was barely at all. Sorry for having no one else to talk to. I didn't mean to bother you. I just wanted a reason to stay.
Forum: Why Me? July 31st 2020, 10:27 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Well it's the end of July.. will I make it to August?

Annnddd yeah, it's going to be a very bad night.
Forum: Mental Health July 31st 2020, 06:35 PM
Replies: 1
Views: 9,118
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: How to get therapy without family knowing

I had the same issues with getting therapy and my parents not believing in mental health issues. To note, I am in the US, 18 is legal adult here, health insurance is horrible.

I personally had to...
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 31st 2020, 04:12 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Over 120,000 cases now
Forum: Why Me? July 31st 2020, 09:38 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Yesterday my fatigue was ONLY moderate-severe! Levels 6-8 on a scale of 1-10 (because that's the only way it means something to medical professionals :unsure: ). But today, I'm at my usual 7-9 and...
Forum: Why Me? July 30th 2020, 10:25 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Slept 4.5 hours.. at least my fatigue isn't worse because it's always this bad regardless of how long I sleep. But need to push myself to job search incase I do something crazy and decide to stay...
Forum: Why Me? July 29th 2020, 01:57 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I wish I didn't have to majorly lie to my parents to keep their minimal support
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2020, 10:03 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

It's been a long, bad, rough, awful, exhausting day.
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2020, 04:35 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

The odds of me surviving July are not in my favor. It's time to go.
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 28th 2020, 03:44 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My state is at over 115,000 confirmed positive cases. Still somewhat limited testing (must show symptoms to get test but there probably is a test available now). New record for hospitalizations, but...
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2020, 03:41 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Extremely not okay. But nothing can be done besides hope I get lucky and can get money
Forum: Why Me? July 28th 2020, 12:42 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Shit's only getting worse. End of the month is approaching. Time is running out. If the govenment isn't going to help or still won't fucking tell us if they will or won't, I'm going to finalize my...
Forum: Why Me? July 27th 2020, 05:22 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

JUST HURRY UP AND DECIDE THE FUCKING UNEMPLOYMENT PLEASE. If it's gonna be hell, I need to know ASAP. If it's gonna be fine, it'd be nice to know that too!
Forum: Why Me? July 26th 2020, 12:21 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Weird thing is I'm actually a morning person. Just very chronically ill, so it doesn't look that way. Fatigue level starts at 7-9 and gets worse throughout the day. This life isn't worth living. No...
Forum: Why Me? July 26th 2020, 12:13 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

I am disposible to the entire country.
Forum: Depression and Suicide July 25th 2020, 04:29 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

Unfortunately my family is unsupportive and can't even support me financially right now. This is not new. They don't even believe in mental disorders and encourage me to push myself until I get so...
Forum: Depression and Suicide July 24th 2020, 08:12 PM
Replies: 15
Views: 10,762
Posted By Tigereyes
Not enough reasons to live to keep suffering this much

That's basically it. I think about ending my life several times per day. I don't have resources or enough support. I can't get resources or more support. I have more than zero reasons to live, but so...
Forum: Why Me? July 24th 2020, 12:00 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I just want to know how bad it's going to be. Should I be cutting back on essentials like basic food? Should I ignore all health problems too? Should I pull my total $1000 out of my forced retirement...
Forum: Why Me? July 22nd 2020, 12:19 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why is everything so heavy?

I might have enrolled in health insurance, but I'm still not actually sure... so many problems.
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 21st 2020, 12:04 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Honestly, there probably won't be much difference unless they can enforce it. We've had mandatory masks for a while, and most people still won't wear them.
Forum: Why Me? July 21st 2020, 11:27 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why even get out of bed when there's no reason to live. The purpose of each day is to try to slow how quickly and horribly my life falls apart. But it already pretty much has. I can't do shit to...
Forum: Depression and Suicide July 20th 2020, 10:43 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

There's been at least one new crisis every single day. Everything has only gotten worse. It's about to be confirmed that it's only going to get worse.
Forum: Why Me? July 20th 2020, 10:18 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'll know by the end of the month if I'm going to keep trying to stay alive or not.
Forum: Why Me? July 20th 2020, 01:05 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Getting dressed, eating a quick breakfast, and brushing my hair and teeth is so physically exhausting. I need 3 hours to do just this every morning. Time to work for my parents, search for a job full...
Forum: Why Me? July 19th 2020, 12:16 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Just another bad day already. I don't think I'll live to ever have another good day.
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 19th 2020, 11:27 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Yep, we hit another nearly 2500 new confirmed cases yesterday--just another typical record breaking high (like 3/4 of the days in July). It's been steadily getting worse, so now we are sending...
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 18th 2020, 11:56 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

98,000 confirmed cases in my state yesterday. We've gone up about 1800-2200 (a few times 2500) new cases per day the past few days. I expect the noon update will tell us we broke 100,000 cases today.
Forum: Why Me? July 17th 2020, 06:36 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Fatigue still so bad. still no answers. Less time to figure it out . No one left to ask.

Life isn't for me.
Forum: Why Me? July 16th 2020, 12:03 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Woke up at 5am with an anxiety attack and couldn't get back to sleep. Fatigue level 9 and I've barely started my day. Need to somehow be productive 'cause I've been too stressed to get stuff done,...
Forum: Why Me? July 15th 2020, 01:08 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'd rather die. Suicide is my fallback.
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 14th 2020, 04:30 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

Nearly 90,000 confirmed positive tests in my state. Record breaking deaths and hospitalizations again. 11% positive rate--another new high!
Forum: Why Me? July 14th 2020, 04:27 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

FUCK THE UNIVERSITY I WORKED AT.
Student and employee lives are NOT disposible...
Forum: Why Me? July 14th 2020, 01:54 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My past is trauma, the present is unbearable, and I have no hope at a decent future. No support, no help, no money to buy help or support. No money to survive more than a few months.

Okay...
Forum: Why Me? July 13th 2020, 12:01 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I feel like crap. Still. It's been years.

Everyday is a bad day.

It's not worth staying alive for this suffering. Only reason I'm waiting to execute my plan is because I don't want to hurt my...
Forum: Why Me? July 12th 2020, 11:23 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm so hopeless.

I don't want to live like this anymore.
Forum: Why Me? July 11th 2020, 09:49 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I just realized that getting a job will actually be impossible. All interviews would be phone. I suck at phone interviews because of panic attacks. I can't.
Forum: Why Me? July 11th 2020, 01:53 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I'm not sure what I'm waiting for.

It's so hopeless. Why don't I just go? Why wait to see if it gets better when it never does and never will?
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 11th 2020, 11:08 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

We've had 5 days in a row of record-breaking hospitalizations in the state. And close to 2,000 new confirmed cases per day--depends how much they test. It's still hard to get tests, but you finally...
Forum: Why Me? July 8th 2020, 11:03 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Guess what, today's no better. What a shock. It's almost like regardless of what I do or don't do, my life keeps falling apart.

I feel like my heart is broken and so sick to my stomach. For a week...
Forum: Why Me? July 7th 2020, 07:22 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Can I please just hurry up and die already

Well damn I fucked up even worse

No one can handle my problems. Then how the fuck am I supposed to, especially without support????

Was told to go...
Forum: Depression and Suicide July 6th 2020, 12:50 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

I only left my job to not die of COVID. If I'm going to die now, that's not the way I want to go. I already feel like my body is failing me on a regular basis. If I somehow didn't die, despite being...
Forum: Why Me? July 6th 2020, 12:37 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Unfortunately, today is the "tomorrow" I have dreaded. This will not end well. Time to finalize my plan to escape forever.

I'm not going to make it.

I'm sorry..

It's not possible for this to...
Forum: Why Me? July 5th 2020, 10:55 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I hope tomorrow never comes.
Forum: Depression and Suicide July 4th 2020, 02:00 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

It still progressively getting worse. It is unbearably bad. I can't hold on anymore.
Forum: Why Me? July 4th 2020, 12:38 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I don't want to die. I want the pain to stop. But it never will. So goodbye is the only way. I'm replaceable anyway.

I think I've lost the will to live this time. I'm calmly miserable and...
Forum: Why Me? July 4th 2020, 01:11 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Unbearable pain
Forum: Education and Careers July 3rd 2020, 09:51 PM
Replies: 3
Views: 9,034
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Future careers.

Maybe look at what interests you about each of those. Think about why. Research what you need to acheive to accomplish each. Does that process sound interesting? Is it realistic for you?

Perhaps...
Forum: Current Events and Debates July 3rd 2020, 07:12 PM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

1500-2000 new confirmed cases per day, ever day. Just in my state, not the country. Today was record breaking of 2100 new confirmed cases. Highest percent positive rate (still don't test enough),...
Forum: Why Me? July 3rd 2020, 05:05 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I can't survive this. I will kill myself if this fails.

Yeah no, this already is too much. I might not wait to see how it turns out. I don't want to know.
Forum: Why Me? July 1st 2020, 01:11 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why shoudn't I end it?

I can't anymore. This may be goodbye. I'm sorry I'm not strong enough.
Forum: Why Me? July 1st 2020, 12:30 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Why does everything have to keep getting worse?? I can't take it anymore. I can't fucking take it. I can't do it anymore. It's not worth staying alive for this. I can't. The pain is just too much and...
Forum: Depression and Suicide June 30th 2020, 08:34 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

Problem is, I may not be able to get another job for a long time. COVID is increasingly worse here, so it's dangerous for me to be in contact with lots of people. Places aren't hiring and aren't...
Forum: Why Me? June 29th 2020, 11:08 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Life is suffering. Nothing more.

Why is there so much bullshit about suicide being a permanent solution to temporary problems? Because some damn problems ARE fucking permanent! My chronic illness...
Forum: Why Me? June 28th 2020, 04:47 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I cant take it anymore. Too sick adn tired literrally. Cant afford to pay anyone to help.

Too exhausted to care for myself. Too bad there's no one to help.

If only rest would help.

I'm too...
Forum: Why Me? June 28th 2020, 02:37 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Body already crashing for day. I've been awake less than 3 hours today. So much to do. Tomorrow won't be better.
Forum: Why Me? June 27th 2020, 09:02 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My body quit on me again.
Forum: Why Me? June 26th 2020, 06:07 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

ANNND just drove my partner to the ER.

They were denied both treatment for the severe pain and further testing. So we wasted time, money, and risked exposure to COVID for nothing.
Forum: Why Me? June 26th 2020, 04:14 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It won't get better. I can't go on. I don't want to go on. I just have to make sure I don't fail.

It may be a permenant solution, but these are actually permenant problems.
Forum: Why Me? June 26th 2020, 01:38 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

My fucking $4000/month meds got lost too. Cool.
Forum: Depression and Suicide June 26th 2020, 01:11 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

I won't be okay soon though. I'm actually okay with that; I can survive until a certain point if it'll get better. But there's reason to believe it won't ever get better, that it will only continue...
Forum: Depression and Suicide June 25th 2020, 04:41 PM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: I can't go on anymore

Disregard this. I give up.
Forum: Why Me? June 25th 2020, 04:24 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Suicide is my only option. I'm making plans. It's too late.
Forum: Why Me? June 25th 2020, 12:12 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

That was too much.
Forum: Why Me? June 23rd 2020, 10:52 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Time to go.
Forum: Why Me? June 23rd 2020, 10:07 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

It's done. No going back.
Forum: Why Me? June 23rd 2020, 11:43 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Less than 10 hours until my decision is irreverible...
Forum: Current Events and Debates June 23rd 2020, 02:40 AM
Replies: 410
Views: 29,277
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Corona Virus.

My state is going up over 1500 confirmed cases per day, hospitals are almost maxed out, PPE is limited, and the university I work at is requiring me to go back to work onsite with no accommodations,...
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2020, 09:21 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

It doesn't get better. It never will. The only thing I can control is if I die by covid or suicide. At least suicide is faster.
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2020, 05:35 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Yep it's over. Fuck my life.
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2020, 03:54 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

If I'm denied this too, I'm 99% sure I'm going to kill myself.
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2020, 11:43 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Time's up.
Forum: Why Me? June 22nd 2020, 11:42 AM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Why must disability discrimination be "legal" in the workplace?
Forum: Why Me? June 21st 2020, 01:12 PM
Replies: 2,126
Views: 56,030
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Complaint of the Day 2

Only way to spend less is by cutting back on basic necessities. I already minimize spending on necessities. So I guess less food and lower nutrition food is all I can do. I can't cut back on rent....
Forum: Why Me? June 21st 2020, 12:24 PM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

Tomorrow, all hell breaks loose to ruin my life completely, forever. Maybe instead of planning for that, it's time to plan how to end it and make sure I don't fail.
Forum: Depression and Suicide June 21st 2020, 02:43 AM
Replies: 9
Views: 11,155
Posted By Tigereyes
I can't go on anymore

TW: abuse mention

Things have gotten increasingly worse the past 14 years. I'm at the end of my rope, and very immediately, it's going to get many, many times worse than ever for many years. My...
Forum: Why Me? June 21st 2020, 01:02 AM
Replies: 10,618
Non-PG13 (Strong Language): Screaming thread.
Views: 331,757
Posted By Tigereyes
Re: Screaming thread.

I really might have to kill myself this time. My life is over.
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