here is how my typical break down would start:
I do not know what on ***** earth is the wrong i did to .....i hate life i hate this world i hate the fact that i am alive i hate the fact that i have to live and every little tiny detail in my life, i wish i did not understamd i wish i were stupid i wish i were nothing just a wall i envey walls for not having to deal with this ......why shall i live? I do not have a single fucking reason to live notrhing i love nothing i want no dreams no hope...

I don't see the point in my life.

My sister keeps on saying she is going to kill herself three of my friends self harm and i think it is because of me.my mum is ill fro stress and no one likes me anymore.

On monday night a girl i knew hung herself and it haunts me!!!!!!

Yeah.... was kind of a shock when I realised it. At first I thought I was just missing England for some odd reason (considering I pretty much hated it). Then I realised it wasn't the place... it was the feeling. The fact that I was always happy while I was there is why I miss it so much.

I'm doing everything I can to stop this. I have to concentrate on my own path.

Im new to this site. Let me just say, I love the atmosphere that this place has. I mean, just searching around and reading randomly, I've seen so much emotion and care going on. I have a site of my own, kinda the same, but not even in a league with whats happening on TH. Im happy I found this place. Already I've met Concrete Girl, who has been very welcoming. But then I read some of the blogs. wow. Just a couple that really touched me were Josh, Adam, and escape_thereal_world. There is so...

I told some of my mates at school today how this web has helped me. and they just laughed and said i was sad and a idiot.

This sort of thing really gets me down and it made me depressed and annoyed that my own friends would put me down.

i dont want to go to school tommoz. im scared they will gang up on me.

last night i was cutting again on the tummy. i don't know what made me do it but it was really bad now i am in pain and blood got all over bed.

i feel lost and don't see the point in life after 2 years of hell. i can't take this much longer i am slowly falling into a big empty space and i'm pushing away people who care

i dont think i can go on much longer but i'll try to fight through