hottest temperature today was 30 degrees celcius approx! aaaaghh!! it's...SUMMER *dramatic music*

yes, that's right, celebrate. summertime is here. holidays, heat, and happiness.

and bugs. and storms. and sweat.

i don't like summer much. yeah, the sun makes a change, the ice-cream rocks, and wouldn't anyone love several weeks holiday? but i'm sitting in a sauna here and i can't sleep in the light and this is only MAY. how am i going to survive july? unless...

Yesterday me and the rest of my senior class went to an amusement park for a day of fun. So I just thought I would post some pics for you guys instead of typing it all out. Afterall, a picture is worth a thousand words, right?

Here's me and my friend on a roller coaster!
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At about 10pm, me and another friend decided to go on this one coaster...just one more time. The park closed for...

OK so ive been away for a while cause the computer broke down but now im back.

I really missed you guys and it ment i got really bored at 2:00am in the morning lol.

Since being away ive been on a all time high and a all time low. Right now im on a low and struggling with depression once more.

On tuesday im going to the doctors after the theripist group decided they couldnt help me with out seeing me. So the doctor wants to see me so that we can work through...

It feels like I'm just living. Living. I'm just here. not involve in anything. Scared to show my face, scared to see the truth. Scared of being accepted. Accepted. What does it even mean? Does it mean to be liked? Does it mean to know who you are? If you gave the one you love everything. Are you really left with nothing. If you take a risk and fall, is it really easier than it seems to get back up?

just 4 the record. i didn't kill daniel, but i wish he would die.

I don't understand him. I mean i know he's not ur average guy. Moved down to where i am from NYC. he's in a gang and he's pretty street. but he makes me so mad!!!

We met in october, don't even remember how he found me. but we hooked up same week. (i know, i already regret it) Eitherway we stopped talking for awhile. then he decides to start talking to me again in March. And whenever i was having a bad day...

Well today is officially my last day of school. I will be entering my Senior year of highschool. I feel so old not gonna lie.

What's strange is ever since i've started highschool i couldn't wait to be graduated and start college. I took a couple courses at a college on summer and i like the way that it's set up much better than highschool. But now that i'm entering my last year of highschool i'm not sure i'm ready to be graduating.

Maybe i'm not ready to leave the somewhat...

Guys help, my mum found my blades, she asked me about it and i lied to her face i feel like a dog. i dont know what to do. if i tell her she would tell my brother and he used to cut and he would give me the speech and iam not up for it. and know i started if i eat i go and puke. i realy dont wana stop cutting i love it. just tel me what to do please help

She wishes she'd never known you, never helped you, never seen you.

Yes, I'm talking to you.

I'm at a good place about my sexuality right now. I can't think about it too much or I do get worried and upset. So I'm trying not to think about it. For my own sake, I think I'm gonna stay out of the LGBT forum for a while. And try not to think about it too much because it doesn't matter right now.

Today has just been an overall stressful day.

Things with my best friend have been shaky, and that in itself has made this whole week hard.

I'm about 96% sure I failed my chemistry test, which will only bring my grade down even more. Which I can hardly afford right now. In fact just now as I was typing this, my mom came in my room with a letter from the school saying I'm in danger of failing, with graduation just 3 weeks away.

Once the bell rang to go home,...