Hello all.
This is my first post, amazingly.
Oh how boring, right?
WORONG!
See? It's so exiting, that I even spelled wrong wrong!
Or is it spelt...?
Whatever.
So today, I'm sick!
Yep yep yep! Me, Darkness, has the sniffles!
Now you guy'll probably be tripping over your 'Get Well!' wishes and crap.
Well, here's a head's up!
THANK YOU FOR CARING!!!!!
Yeah 'cause no one but you guys would give a damn if I had a cold or not....

Well me and my boyfriend are sharing this account cause both of us need help and its just easier this way. he needs help with family issues and i need help with school, being a new mom and relationship issues. i just need someone he can vent to and can give us advice.

"Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin for the phone cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing...

English homework. 1000 word reflective essay on 'Why do you write?'
Since my english teacher -and possibly class- are now going to realise how crazy and messed up I am, I figured I might as well share it with the rest of the world. Why not broadcast insanity?
(I also made it rainbow coloured so it's not too boring )


Why do I write?

I guess that there could many plausible answers to that question. Because I have to, for school. Because I’m bored....

My wrist is a mess. Not like they're even that big, Or deep. Just small and lots of them. It's the only way I feel I can deal with this. I've been so confused the past 4 or 5 days and I'm sick of crying. It's happening again. It's all beginning again.
I don't know if I can handle this a second time round. Maybe I'm just not meant to be happy.
Maybe I'm just not meant to survive.
Maybe I was supposed to die that night in December. And the safety and happiness that that night...

Laura came over again today. And again, it was good - though I made her promise not to get grumpy about it later, because last night around midnight she went all emo and depressed.
I did all my exercise stuff again today, except not as much ab work, and used lighter weights to get the range of motion flowing freely. Also, through copious amounts of walking, managed 17,406 steps. I'm in shock, that's nearly double what you *need* to do and I don't feel at all bad about it.

Now...

Ailin is very cute lol. He's been cuddly as. Louise came over to catch up and stuff, she got some bananas (om nom nom) because apparently I need to eat more fruit (I knew this but it was still nice of her). She also got a little can of fancy feast for Ailin. He loved it and has been very friendly and cuddly ever since I gave it to him. Happy kitten.

Laura came over. It was better than expected, though it often is where she's concerned. I walked to pick her up, then we walked back...

Exercise stooffs - possibly triggering?

4x sets of 25 each uppers, lowers, on back, sides and front.
4x sets of ~15 wide arms press ups from knees.
3x sets of 6 of each a bunch of a dumbell exercises I can't remember the names of.

It took me around an hour. It didn't feel like enough, but I couldn't remember any more and I was running out of steam. I guess I'll do it again tomorrow. I have to.

Me and Laura pretty much broke up. It's very confusing...

At least Ailin's happy. He's being purry across my lower stomach-ish region.

We kinda broke up. I was mad that she told my brother about my overdraft, so I said if she had no excuse for it, she should leave. She didn't even bother to try and excuse it. So she's gone now.

She took Spider. I was annoyed, I wanted Spider to stay. I'm scared Ailin will get lonely without him. Spider's going to a house that already has two cats so there's no chance he'll be lacking feline company,...