Darling,

I stayed up all night going through your stuff. I looked at our pics, some made me laugh, some made me cry. Mostly i cried. I cried for you, for us, for all the things we didnt have the time to do. But then i remmbered all the things we did do. And so many memeries came back pix, we had some crazy wonderful times. And i will treasure those times. I wont forget i promise you that. But its time i moved on dont you think? Its been 254 days...I cried for you every one of those...

Everything now seems ridiculous. I never want to move and I never want to see anyone. Everyday it seems something sets me off. I start feeling terribly weak and get odd aches and pains. I don't know if it's depression but I just know it is. I can feel it just like I knew I needed glasses when I went to the eye doctor and because I'm a christian I tell the truth. I've worn glasses for about a month. I'm scared to tell my parents because they would think I'm over reacting. Today I felt depressed and...

It seems almost every one here who reads the things I post just ignore it. I've only had 2 comments and not where I need comments! I freakin want to kill myself! I am so confused about being bi or not and no one has tried to help! What is up! I'm ignored at school all the time and I'm hated by almost everyone!!! I need help and no one seems to care!!!! I need someone to look at some of my previous posts and help me out!!!!!!!!!!!!! Others have gotten help who have had big problems but not me! I...