Still struggling a lot but i'm super excited for Tuesday
My friend M asked me if I wanted to go to London with her and watch Russell Howard's good news being filmed. I absolutely love this guy and I'm so excited. Me and M are going to spend the day in London too. So Tuesday should be good
Also I'm getting my braces off tomorrow if all goes to plan. (: About time too

Still feeling...

I'm fucking everything up and I can't stop myself...
What's wrong with me?
I say I'm going to help... Don't ask why
I get so pissed I can't and have to leave before I regret something...
All she did was say my pudding was yummy.
Hate being shit at everything. Hate being a cruel, useless waste of space.
I know why I'm annoyed...
Because she said suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness..
Fuck Off! What does she know?

School tomorrow.....

hmm shes starting to piss me off, maybe i should spend less time with her? i dont know, i spend like everyday but the weekend with her, and she pisses me off a lot, hmmm less time during the week or hell i dont know,

got plastered today, starting at 930 am, got away from pain for awhile, its back, i dont know what to do, should i cut? drink more? i dont know, i might just give up weed and start up drinking or cutting again, i have no clue man, my head is messed up