Freezing cold. I ate this morning. Exercised obsessively afterwards but I still ate.

Is that an achievement? I think it is.

I have an appointment with my counselor on Tuesday. I don't think I'm going to be able to ask for the help I need. I'm scared.

She is so PERFECT.
Everyone looks up to her. Everyone wants to be her. Everyone wants to date her.
Where am I in all this?
Have I not put myself out there enough to be noticed like her?
Have I not been pretty enough?
Am I just crazy?
Am I going insane?
Whatever happen to me? Did I just disappear?
I thought I was doing a pretty damn good job of putting on a smile, and faceing the day. Each and everyday.
You know what??
I compare...

i just want to say thank you to every one here that you guys really made a difference <3 it was a comfort knowing i could come here and be acepted as who i am. also goodbye agin i wouldnt have made it this far without you!
stay strong, stronger than i am <3