Ugh thank god! My parents evening actually went well... teachers were dead nice and didn't focus on the fact I'm never listening just said I have a 'good work ethic'. SO relieved, I thought they were gunna have a go that although I'm deadly silent I'm always in my own world. In fact I only had one bad appointment and that was textiles... I don't care about textiles, pointless subject, don't know why I picked it, all I do is trap my finger in the machine I can't work. Although I shouldn't be having...

Sitting in the college library again. Hiding. Saw head of the dept. at reception this morning, she might have been asking them to call me to see if I was coming in.
The bus driver decided to drive past me this morning. I walked out of the bus shelter when he came up the hill and waited by the road for him to stop. He just stared at me and kept driving. Wow, thanks.
So I get to be late. I'm sat in the library because I'm nearly an hour late already and break is in 20 minutes. I'll go

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Can't deal with this today. Please don't make me deal with this today.
But if I don't go in, I'll be kicked off the course. I feel so sick. Already cut. Want to more. Except these new blades. I like the pain. I love the blood. But I really hate the slicing feeling.
Need to get over it. Need more. I WANT TO BLEED UNTIL I CAN'T ANYMORE.
Leaving later. Will probably be late for college. Don't even know what room I'm supposed to be in. Fml.
I hate this. I can't deal with

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