Why won't it all just stop? Why do I have to feel so trapped and empty? Why can't someone help me? Why do I keep breaking down? Why am I sometimes fine and then sometimes rock bottom? Why do I want to kill myself? Do I have anything to live for? Will it always be like this? I want to cry again. I think I'm going to cry again. But I've cried so much today the tears won't come. I'm scared for tomorrow. I don't want to go out with that group. I'm scared they'll all hate me. I'm scared they won't talk...

I want to talk to Pete. He was nice and he listened to me.

I've been stranded again just as all the shit comes pouring back on me.

It's not fair. I feel stupid and selfish saying that but it's not fair that when I was seeing him I was fine and as soon as I stop I want to die.

But I've finished school. So I don't get to see him. And I don't know what to do.

I'm trying so hard right now. I just don't think it will even be enough. It seems like no matter how hard i try or no matter what i do life has a way of saying. Emma you're not good enough! Makes me wonder why i even try anymore. Makes me feel useless, worthless, stupid. I feel like a failure. Probably because i am one.

Meh enough about me anyway i just want to say thanks to everyone whos been there for me and stuff. I love you so much and i wouldn't have made it this far without you....

Sorry is a wasted word, that doesnt want to be heard.
Dont try to make it up to me now, Im thruu with your games. I am taking my heart back.
Is this me being strong?
I love him, but I dont want to be hurt again. I dont want to fall into depression again. But he made me happy and sane sometimes. Hes messing with my emotions...
???

I hate being ugly.
I hate being fat.
I hate being horrible.
I hate being me.

[quote=Hopeyyy;664142]I just want somebody to make me laugh or smile? Please put some jokes or funny stories on hereee. Reply. Love yuu guys:dem

I heard your voice today(in the merories, memories) I relived the moments. I retasted the tears.
I am not asleep, I am not awake, not after the way you loved me.
Everywhere I go I see a memory. Im so lost and lonely.
i need someone who nolonger wants me.
LET ME OUT OF THIS DREAM.
Cant yuu see wat yurr doing to me?
I keep running into walls that I cant break down. I keep seeing a dream thats covered in a mist. I keeping wishes that will never come true....