After more than two years, it shouldn't affect me anymore. There should be no nostalgia and no regret, because I know so fully that I'm better off without her. I was going through old photos tonight, photos of the two of us. I thought I looked fit, attractive, and well adjusted. I thought SHE looked overweight with bad skin and a slutty dress sense.

I started to question why I still stayed with her, even after she cheated. And I remembered having NO self-esteem whilst I was with her,...

recently, I promised someone I wouldnt cut or hurt myself for a while. Even more recently, it has been a stretch to keep that promise. I find myself tracing old scars and putting haloween tattoos that look like injuries to keep myself from hurting. i have also been dipping tissues in red food die to resemble blood stains... Music and exercise have been my only escapes. I've been eating more normally too, but I know I'm over exercising. I hope Christmas will magically fix my life. I know it wont,...