Feeling worse than ever lately, alone, stupid, urges, scared, need you more than ever...

I guess it doesn't matter though, I don't think people would even notice if I went.. Pills are so useful right now.

I'm the biggest fuck-up ever.
I hate what I'm doing.
Breaking everyone.

I do love him.
I mean, I'm pretty much only still here for him.

But I love her too.
She's beautiful and understands me.

What have I done?
I've fucked it up with him.
I kissed her.
I fucking kissed her and then said she could be my girlfriend.

I'm a two-timing bitch.

He was, is the best thing that had happened to...