The feelings back, the want, the need. I miss it. I feel like I need it. I want to go to bed and never wake up. I want to drink until I black out. It's to much. I want to rip my eyes out. I want to pull the veins from my arms until there not connected anymore. I want to end it all. The pain, the stress, the need. Everything. I want it to end. I'm afraid to be alive anymore, but I'm afraid to die. I hate it. I feel like I did two years ago.

I just want scrape the slate clean. Remove all the bad thoughts from this blog, and create a happy place for me and perhaps, even for others to share their ideas. I want this blog to become something interesting, maybe informative, and somewhere I come to be interesting and have fun. NO BAD DAYS WILL LEAK INTO THIS BLOG!!!! Okay guys, thats the idea, I'm going to put this into action!!

love you all inappropriately! xx

~Brenna