I'm feeling worse than ever, I can't control my suicidal thought or thoughts to self harm, I don't want to keep doing this and I don't even know what to do anymore.

You're pathetic and worthless Charli

my meds are messing up my sleep
i can barely stay upright without feeling really ill
i feel so nauseous
everythings in pain
theres no end to this
theres no treatment theres nothing
i hate everything
i hate being ill
i want to be normal
i want to be able to do my degree like a normal person